Love Me Or Hate Me Its Still An Obsession.

My Fave Place

2009-11-21T23:21:00.002+08:00

Chacha cooked for me fried rice. Yes she finally cooked for me!

What can I say, she did suprise me as it tasted damn good!

Shrooms

2009-11-20T08:15:00.000+08:00

Perhaps these are the magical shrooms!

Gummy Dino

2009-11-17T11:20:00.002+08:00

I found the biggest dinosaur gummy yesterday!

And it gets much colder!

1 T-Shirt, 1 Sweater, 1 Hoodie, 2 Socks & Freezing Fingers

5pm

2009-11-14T18:15:00.003+08:00

The temperature is getting better however, we are not really able to go out
that much as it gets really dark very early. As early as 5pm and by 6pm,
it feels like it's 9pm plus.

1 T-Shirt, 1 Sweater, 1 Hoodie & 2 Socks.

The Chosen One

2009-11-13T23:34:00.000+08:00

1 Tshirt, 1 Sweater, 2 Hoodies & 2 Socks.

Penneys

2009-11-12T23:14:00.005+08:00

As the weather was pretty good, me and Sash decided to head to town
to shop at Penneys which is a departmental store.

Total damage done:-

Oh btw, we had some really good home-made vege food on Monday and heres the pic!

1 T-Shirt & 2 Hoodies

View

2009-11-08T14:11:00.004+08:00

The weather is getting worse.
It's so cold we can barely go anywhere though we had plans to hit
the bar on Saturday day. Instead we decided to stay indoors watch movies
and series on Sash's laptop and also play monopoly till early morning.
I still haven't slept well probably due to jet lag.

Anyway here are the views outside my room window and also outside
the balcony.

For the first time in my life, my sister cooked me dinner!
She made me Chicken Tikka with Rice & Pappadams while Morgan made some
Muffins for desserts.

It was soo good! I think with food like this, I can so see myself gaining
weight before heading back home.

1 T-Shirt, 1 Sweater & 3 Hoodies

Hello Cork, Ireland

2009-11-06T23:04:00.003+08:00

After travelling for almost 24 hours I finally made my way to Cork, Ireland
in one piece, with my hand luggage and checked-in luggage.

My flight from Singapore to London was so boring as my entertainment
set was not working. Also as my seat was close to the kitchen, there
was a funky smell coming from it almost every 3 hours. But thank god
one of the Angmoh stewards was smelling so good that each time he walked
past my seat area I could breathe into some comforting smell that made
me almost smile to myself like a cuckoo suddenly.

Transiting in London was a total bitch but I am really proud of myself
for reaching Cork safely without asking anyone for directions and
especially making it through London airport where the security was
the worse with Hitler look-alike custom officers.

Sometimes I amuse myself.

I had never been so happy to see my sister and her hubby when I finally
reached Cork airport after travelling for almost 24 hours and countless
amount of security checks. The first I realised when I stepped out of
the airport was how fucking cold the weather was.

As cab rides are freaking expensive over here, we then took a bus ride
to Cork City Parnell Bus Interchange and then we took a cab to Midleton
which cost us almost 35 Euro!

But all the travelling felt so worth when I finally reached their house.
I'm inlove with their 2-storey house. It gives you a feeling like you
are in some holiday chalet. Their bedrooms and the bathroom in on the first
floor and their hall, dinning area and kitchen is on the 2nd storey, upstairs.
Felt kinda pretty weird for me when I first stepped in but now I am
starting to quite like this layout.

After unpacking my bag alittle, we then headed down to their huge superstore
called Tesco to get some stuffs that I would need. I could roam in Tesco
for hours with the amount of cool stuffs they have in there.

As a welcome dinner, Morgan cooked me some addictive, fah-boh-loh-soh
Beef Lasagna.

After dinner, I was a super-khushi girl shivering my ass off under 1
T-Shirt and 2 hoodie jackets.

Goodbye Wiley

2009-10-31T02:30:00.004+08:00

Here are some of the sweet farewell gifts received
from my colleagues in Wiley. I'm surely not gonna be missin'
the work load but I would definitely miss some of the people there.

Mika is a sheep that belongs to Esther and it was one thing that I was
going to miss the most in Wiley. Knowing what a super-major crush I had
on him, Esther gave him to me as a farewell gift.

So here is the promise I gave her in return:-

I, Chitra
Take Mika
To be my besttu-frienddu
From this day forward
To have and to hold in my hand baggage
To go through Angmoh crowds and unknown sign boards
For the better for worse
For the warm and the cold
In flu, cold and in health
To love & to cherish.

Till a lost hand baggage do us part …

However, as mention in my farewell message to them, received
farewell gifts will not be returned in the event I was to return
back to the company after my holiday in Ireland.

Pukka!

2009-10-24T14:56:00.011+08:00

I have been wanting to give him a wash for a long time
and I thought today shall be the day. Tho I felt so bad
to put him inside the washing machine, I didnt quite have
a choice. Worried that he might be torn apart during the process,
I literally sat by the washing machine for a full 23 minutes
just to ensure that he was in one piece by the end of the process.

Thank god, he came out all fine. Super clean, pink & white!

Super khushi Pukka & Me.

Instructions For Freedom

2009-10-22T20:20:00.007+08:00

1. Life's metaphors are God's instructions.

2. You have just climbed up and and above the roof.
There is nothing between you and the Infinite.
Now, let go.

3. The day is ending. It's time for something that was
beautiful to turn into something else that is beautiful.
Now, let go.

4. Your wish for resolution was a prayer.
Your being here is God's response.
Let go, watch the stars come out -- on the outside and on the inside.

5. With all your heart, ask for grace, and let go.

6. With all your heart, forgive him, forgive yourself,
and let him go.

7. Let your intention be freedom from useless suffering.
Then, let go.

8. Watch the heat of day pass into the cool night.
Let go.

9. When the karma of a relationship is done, only love remains.
It's safe. Let go.

10. When the past has passed from you at last, let go.
Then climb down and begin the rest of your life. With great joy.

16.10.2008

2009-10-16T20:08:00.011+08:00

ıɐɐɯɐʎısɐƃɐɹ lɐuuos ǝʎılǝʌ
ǝʎǝǝu ıɐɐɹıƃnɥʇɹɐun lıɾuǝu uǝ
ɯnlɐɐɥʇıɐɹɐɯ uɐɐu lɐɯɐllos
ɯnpıʌ ıʇɐɐʞ ıɐuuǝ lɐƃıuɐɯ uıuuɐʞ uǝ

SMS Problem

2009-10-13T20:26:00.005+08:00

What do you do when your mobile network fails on you?

No, I refuse to even think that the fault may lie on my phone

Sweets For My Sweet

2009-10-11T00:20:00.003+08:00

This is the 3rd weekend that I have been so busy and I know for a fact
that next week or the next after isn't going to get any better.

We had people over painting the whole house the week before
and last week they were finshing the job and varnishin the doors.
This week I was helping my mom clean the windows and clear other stuffs.
I have not even touched on my packing at all and I am not talking
about packing for a one week holiday or a one month holiday.
I still wont be able to start my packing as I have one more week
to help my mom out with the cleaning and for the offical day so I
can only start after Deepavali.

I feel like I can still remember last year's Deepavali so clearly
and yet it's here again so soon. Well, I haven't really been a big
fan of Deepavali for the past couple of years probably because I tend
to get reminded of alot of unpleasant memories and I know this year
isn't going to be any better as well.

Oh well, these are the cookies for this year's celebration.
Something new, something tasty & sweet.

Billie Jean Can Never Be Your Lover

2009-10-05T17:38:00.005+08:00

I can now finally understand why MJ had to die suddenly.

Yeah, Rock On but hopefully next time in your dreams only.

Happy Birthday!

2009-10-03T03:32:00.002+08:00

It's your birthday time again;
It's true, there's no denying,
Another year has come and gone,
You know that I’m not lying.

So for you, the birthday person,
Here's what I want to say:
I hope this birthday's the best one yet,
In every delightful way.

So happy birthday to you.
Have lots of birthday fun
May your birthday wishes all come true,
Even if you have a ton.

Happy Birthday!

Mark His Words

2009-10-02T00:36:00.006+08:00

I was browsing through my favorite CLEO magazine and was looking for the
horoscope page when I thought I saw a familiar face in one
of the pages as I flipped through.

And then I realised. It was Makku!

Weee weeet!

Singapore To Ireland

2009-10-01T02:47:00.002+08:00

The Truth About Life

2009-09-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

1.Love Is Complicated.

We all have been conned by the romance movies and novels.
No, love was never meant to be complicated.
It is meant to be something simple which gives you happiness.
If you find it complicated, then something is terribly wrong.

2.Teen Drinking Is Very Bad.

If you shouldn't drink at the age when you have less commitments and worries
are you supposed to wait till you are over 30 when you have much more
commitments, more worries and loans?
Gee now that makes total sense, doesn't it?

3.Chocolates Makes You Fat.

Not if you skip your breakfast, lunch and dinner for a chocolate bar.
Now hand me over my boost chocolate bar and nobody gets hurt!

4.Love Is Blind.

Right. The next time you are going over to meet your lover, have your hair
done up like you are a typhoon survivor with a boogie sticking out your nostril.
Let me know how that works out for you.

5.Money Makes You Happy.

True. But only if you win the money through lottery or you are born into a rich family where you didn’t have to do anything for it.

Money =(Work x Time)- Living Expense + Bills + Food + Entertainment
More Money =(More Work x More Time) – Living Expense + Bills + Food + Medical Bills

Even More Money =(Even More Work x Even More Time)– Living Expense + Bills + Food + Hospital Bills

Or

Human = Eat + Sleep + Work + Enjoy
Donkey = Eat + Sleep

Therefore,

Human = Donkey + work + Enjoy

Therefore,

Human - Enjoy = Donkey + Work

In other words,

Human That Don't Enjoy = Donkey That Work

Eeeyorh - Eeeyorh

6.It's Not Right For Ladies To Get Down On The First Date.

Yes it is not ethical. So, wait till you done with couple of dates,
braced through boring phone conversations for over a year only to point
and laugh till you roll off the bed.

7.Love Makes The World Go Around.

So does alcohol when you have too much of it while suffering a heart-break.

8.Laughter Is The Best Medicine.

What, even if you just have been diagnosed with an illness which probably has the most alphabets and god knows how the hell to even pronounce it?
Before you know it, you might die from hippopotomonstrosesquipedaliophobia.

9.Love life and life will love you back. Love people and they will love you back.

I'm so amused by this lame statement, I am speechless.
Oh well, fuck you.

10.What Goes Around Comes Around.

The effect may not be so soon. Perhaps when you are in your late eighties
sick to the core till you need to be on a life support system, your maid just
might come over and unplug your system to plug in the vacuum cleaner.

Songs Over Played On My Player

2009-09-24T23:48:00.004+08:00

In no random order..

1. K Hari – Mounathaal Kaayam

2. Fashion - Mar Jaawan

3. Shabir Feat Mark Bonafide - Bedouin Girl

4. Dinesh K – Kuruvi

5. Akon Featuring Keyshia Cole – Work It

6. Luck - Jee Lee

7. Gym Class Heroes Feat The Dream – Cookie Jar

8. Jayz & Linkin Park – Dirt Off Your Shoulder / Lying From You

9. Dinesh – Thamila

10. Akon Featuring Colby Odonis & Kardinal - Beautiful

11. Vaada Raha – Vaada Raha (Remix)

12. Taio Cruz – She’s Like A Star

13. Rihanna – Sell Me Candy

14. Kadhalviruz Feat Shreema – Stolen My Heart

15. Mariah Carey Feat. Gucci Mane - Obsessed Remix

A Short Trip

2009-08-16T01:20:00.001+08:00

My New Love

2009-06-17T01:22:00.002+08:00

I am a happy girl once again! :)

Can I Have Your Number?

2009-06-14T23:44:00.004+08:00

It hasn't been a good day.
First I haven't been sleeping enough for the past two days.
I only managed to sleep for like 4 hours in total for Friday & Saturday
and now I'm starting to feel really exhausted and drained.

Then my palm phone suddenly went cuckooz so I did a soft reset on it.
Unfortunately that didn't work so I had to do a hard reset on it and now
I'm stuck. My touchscreen died on me and now I can't even bypass align
screen to start up my phone. After trying for hours, I have given up.

Today marks the death day of my beloved phone.

It sucks, totally.

I have now lost 100 over contact numbers, addresses and even
birthday reminders. Being so bad with numbers I can't even remember my
dad's mobile number so as you can figure out, I am offically screwed.

Domi

2009-06-13T03:20:00.000+08:00

Dominique Fernandez

He is such a cute thing. He gets all excited when he sees someone new
and when he is asked to back-off by his owner he sulks like a little kid that
he didn't get to smell them. He barely barks nor bites and he gets all excited
when you call him. He recently started to not respond to his usual name Domi but to responds to the name Dominique Fernandez,
Fernandez being the name of a soccer player.

His bestfriend is a Cat by the name of Dolly
(which is actually a male cat which got mistaken for a female in the beginning)
and he goes around sniffing his butt and allowing Dolly
sniff him back in return too.

I so want a laid back dog like him.

Soo Yesterday & Today

2009-06-08T23:53:00.001+08:00

Soo Yesterday:

Twitter account
Watermelon Juice
Polar Chicken Pie
Resident Evil 5
Puppy
Jeyam Ravi
Vallvan - Vali Theduthe
Kadhalviruz – Honey & Crazy Girl (Remix)
6 pillows
Cuckoodile!
Oreo Mcflurry
The noisy bird outside my bedroom window
Robert Pattinson
Disconnected friendship with Richard (aka BaBBeaR)

Soo Today:

Irritating messages & add request on Imeem.
Strawberry Juice
Blue-berry ice cream
Tom Clancy's Rainbow Six Vegas 2
Chittu/Chikku
Dr Burn – Gangster
Bedouin Girl by Shabir Feat Mark Bonafide
5 pillows
Fwwuench' Fwuoyais'!
Milo McFlurry
Cuckooraches in my kitchen
Taylor Lautner
Connected friendship with Richard (aka BaBBeaR)

So yesterday till today:-

Pukka
No facebook
Weird dreams.

Horror Film Wisdom

2009-06-04T23:45:00.001+08:00

When it seems that you've finally killed the monster,
never check to see if it's really dead.
If you find that your house is built upon or near a cemetery,
was once a church used for black masses, had previous inhabitants
who went mad or committed suicide or died in some horrible fashion
or who performed necrophilia or satanic practices, move away immediately.
Do not search the basement, especially when the power has just gone out.
If your children speak to you in Latin or any other language
which they do not know, or if they speak using a voice other than
their own, do not waste your time asking for their name. Instead
shoot them at once. It will save you a lot of grief in the long run.

Note: it's unlikely they'll die easy, so be prepared.
When you have the benefit of numbers, never go alone.
If you're searching for something which caused a noise and find
out that it's just the cat, leave the cat alone and leave the room immediately
if you value your life.
If you're running from the monster, you will most likely
trip or fall. If you are female you surely will.
If your car runs out of gas at night, do not go to the nearby
deserted-looking house to phone for help.
When something bad is chasing you, bear in mind that when you
try to start your car, no matter how reliable the vehicle is
normally, you'll have to crank the engine over many times before
it will fire up.
People arriving to rescue you generally get ambushed by the monster,
so don't rely on them as your only means of escape. In fact, expect
to be surprised and delayed by encountering their flayed corpse at some point.
Do not call the police as they are either evil and will turn
you in or will not believe you and laugh at you. Either way,
you must handle the problem yourself.
If you are using a gun to combat the all-comsuming evil,
it is a good idea to quickly find a new means of defense,
because no matter how much ammo you have, you'll run out just
before you kill the monster.
If you have defeated the monster, pay close attention to the camera,
if it pans away for no apparent reason at all, get the heck out of there.
Skeptics are always proved wrong in some horrible, nasty, painful way.
Be a believer.
If you are a child, don't panic! Monsters only attack overly horny teenagers. Children can NOT be killed in a movie, only possessed or absorbed. So cheer up!
If you've beaten the monster into a bloody pulp and you're sure he
must be dead, take the opportunity to dismember, burn, eat, blow up or
otherwise utterly destroy him.

Changes

2009-05-14T08:37:00.006+08:00

It’s a wet wet morning.
Just on the day I decided to wear a dress it had to rain and
Mom said it was because of the dress. Hmmpff!

I decided to sell my Fifa 09 to buy a new game.
Especially since I have completed the Resident Evil 5
on my own and I’m getting bored whenever I am at home.
Though it would only make sense for me to sell that game too,
I still have hopes on playing that game with someone
cause I think the game rocks with two players instead
of just one. But then again I can also play it with my
friend whenever I go over for my gaming sessions.
So, to sell or not to sell I’m still deciding and I can't make up my mind.

I started back on reading my last book, Breaking Dawn.
I never really admitted the real reason on why I stopped
reading the book even though I was so hooked to it at one point.
I guess the real reason was because the strong chemistry
and attraction between Edward and Belle was something I
could somehow relate to with someone at one point.
Each time I read the book, I couldn’t stop getting reminded
of those moments and it got pretty painful at one time
especially since things between me and that someone has
taken a drastic 360 degree change.

Well, things change and people will eventually change too.
Though I can be quite adaptive to changes, it's the change
on the way people around me behave which is something I still
have a hard time adjusting to.

As I asked Cuckoonut the other day, what type of person is he?
The comfort seeker or the change seeker?
He said he was a mix of both and he asked what about me?
I told him I have always been the comfort seeker, whereby
once I’m comfortable with something or someone, I have a
very hard time leaving it or the person. When I do, I always
feel like a little part of me dying inside. Maybe that would
explain why I hate to get too close to people and I always
try to disappear on them. It's not that I don't care or don't
miss them or anything but it's because I'm trying to
lead my life without getting used to having them in it.

When he heard this, in return he said he would
always be around.

Well, what can I say to that?

People who say this to me are the ones who always end
up changing or leaving the fastest. It's these people
who tell me to always be myself and they would probably
love/adore me even more but as time goes by, I can never
be myself with them. Cause as time changes everything,
I'm left to be judged and misunderstood. My mom said
that's the hardest thing one can go through, and
she noticed that I tend to go through this phrase quite a lot.
But I say that's one of the saddest things one can experience
but it is something I’m learning to get used to.

Back

2009-05-12T20:45:00.003+08:00

I think this post is like super-duper long due.
First I have been kinda busy with work and then I fell sick
like really sick. Then I was struck by the flu and just when I thought
I was recovering, it hit me again like unexpected typhoon.

Then just when I was finally done with my flu, (technically maybe 80%
done) I suddenly came down with stomach flu. And trust me this was
seriously bad. Within hours I went from all-good-jumping-about to
high-fever-so-sick-curledupinbed-state.

Mom & Dad had to bring me to a 24-hours clinic and I had to get a jab
and on a bloody sunday night. Despite taking the damn jab,
I was still so sick the next day that my mom had to leave work early
just to come home and feed me lunch. I guess it is at times like this,
you tend to appreciate people who love you unconditionally especially
after seeing the things they would do for you. And sadly it is also
times like this you tend to think about people who probably
don't give a damn about you.

I thought having high fever was already bad enough, but on-top of that
I had to have the strangest dream. It felt like I was walking about
blind-folded with my hands bleeding from cuts. As I counted my steps and
I made my way to the bathroom, I saw myself standing infront of the mirror.
I then removed pins from the side of my mouth one by one as I placed them on
the sink top. The thing is, it felt so real it was almost as if
I was astro projecting; grey images, vibrant colors here and there.
That very moment I knew I was dreaming but no matter how hard I tried to
wake up to end the dream it felt like my soul was far away from my body and
I didnt have control over my body nor my movements.

When I managed to wake up, I could feel the pain in my eyes after
straining so hard to look through the small holes from the blindfold,
I could even taste the metal pins in the corner of my mouth.

Hexed? It surely feels like it. The sudden illness and the dream.
I could be right, I could be wrong.
But I do believe in magicks and the way it works,
Well, do harm to others and watch it come back to you X3.

Well, besides being sick, I've also been busy re-doin' my room
so I basically didnt have a proper place to even use my laptop
to update my blog. But finally after working on my room for like a week,
it's almost 80% done.

I've bought so many new things. Well, ofcuz since I have been
shopping alot lately. And since I was shopping for my room,
how can I forget candles?

The little things that makes my dil go mmmmmmm...

The way my room looks now - I totally dig it!

Well, the main purpose of changing my whole room layout was due to
the sleeping problems I have been having lately and I must say the
efforts have been paid off. Now, my bed tempts me more than anything
or anyone and when I get on it, Hallelujah!

Oh and did I mention? Most of the items in my room are now in my fave color.

Flu

2009-04-21T20:44:00.001+08:00

And I thought my flu couldn't get any much worse than it
already was at 2am this morning as I lied on my bed trying to
breathe through my super-blocked nose. But I was so wrong.
I obviously underestimated the power of flu.

I had to go to the doctor once again and this time,
I came back home with much more colorful pills and 2 days MC.

Now what am I supposed to do with the other set of colorful
pills which I got during the first around of my visit to the doc?
Maybe I should throw it at the stupid evil noisy bird which sits outside
my window so that it would eventually shud-da-fuck-up.
Maybe I should mix it with some bird food and try to tempt the bird to eat it.

What do birds eat anyway?

It's the side effect of the pills I promise.
I'm not usually that loco and evil, ruwellie.

in & out @! 10:44AM

Update

2009-04-19T15:50:00.007+08:00

This post is so long due. Was busy at work first, and then thanks to someone
I got so busy with Resident Evil 5 and then I finally got the fuckin' flu
and fever and I still haven't recovered and it has been 5 days already.

Seraj got admitted in the hospital on Wednesday which had to be on the day
I was so down with fever and flu and I couldnt even go and visit him.
So I decided to send him a Crabtree & Evelyn biscuit gift basket to put a
smile on him and that boy couldn't stop thanking me after he received it.
But honestly I think that is nuthin' compared to the 100 Ferrero Rochers wrapped
as a bouquet which he gave me.

Anyway, I just can't wait to recover soon cause there is so many things
I wanna do, so many people I wanna meet up with, so much fun waiting
for me to come and have a taste of it.

So little time, so many things to do. But I think I can get used to this.

Anyway if you happen to be addicted to Resident Evil like me, hit me.
We can catch em & kill em together.

2009-04-06T20:23:00.012+08:00

Imaginary Things

2009-04-02T23:54:00.013+08:00

Journals
I wonder what are the things I would have wrote about if I had a journal
when I was in Primary School. Especially since I seem to express
myself way better in writing and drawing than via talking.

I don’t know but somehow when I wanna say something serious,
it never seem to come out right via speech. People usually
misunderstand me that I am being sarcastic (which I used to be)
or they just get the whole wrong idea.

When I write out, I feel that I can't quite go wrong with words.
Except that I can't quite show my emotions clearly since it's kinda
tone-deaf and also risking the fact that one wrong use of word can
make the whole statement sound so wrong.

Well going back to what if I had a journal in Primary School,
I really do wonder what I might have written in there.
Could I have talked about the Malay store keeper who sold Mee Robus
in the school canteen who I could swear was some serial killer at that time?
Or would I have talked about my tamil teacher who reminded me of a camel?
Perhaps I would have talked about my then blur-cock best friend who
looked like a geek with his coke bottle glasses.

Not really sure but one thing I know for sure is that I surely
would have had a lot of drawings in between my scribbling.
Who can ever forget my cotton looking images which I called them
clouds and colored them in blue? And despite the fact that Sash had
told me couple of times that the sky was blue and that the clouds
were white I've always thought she was an evil-child who was
plain jealous and she had a huge motive behind telling me such a
big-fat-lie. Fine, I was a delusional kid.

But another thing I know for a fact is that I probably didn’t
have a journal cause I used to rip the pages off the books pretty often.
Okay, pretty often is maybe not the right term to use so let's say A LOT.
But that wasn’t because I was some psychotic child who had a weird
fetish to go around ripping books apart but it was because I
wanted each and every word that I wrote in a book to be neat and nice.
If one word seemed slightly out of the line, I would look around
to see if anyone is noticing me before I go about happily tearing
the page off the book. I would then crumble the paper and hide it
somewhere till I find a safe trash can. And when I mean safe,
I mean safe from my teachers and my mom.

And if you are wondering how my school excerise books used
to look like, they were all anorexic looking with decent looking
handwritings. When my teachers ask me why my excerise books looked so
thin, I used to just thiruttu-mooli-mulikkirans and act like
I must have got conned by the bookstore staff like she sold me a 50-pages
excercise book for the price of a 200-page book.

Well, long story made short : I had issues.
Come to think of it, I think I still do. I still do have the habit
to tear the pages of my books whenever I write something and when it turns
out kinda fugly looking.

So, thank god they created blogs!

2009-03-31T12:23:00.010+08:00

Twilight Series

About three things I was absolutely positive.
First, Edward was a vampire. Second, there was part of him — and
I didn't know how potent that part might be — that thirsted for my blood.
And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.

I was really interested in watching the movie Twilight the moment I
saw the movie trailers but then when I finally got a chance to watch it,
I thought it kinda disappointed me. But that was only until I got my
hands on the books. It honestly blew my mind off.

With shaky legs, ignoring the fact that my
action was useless, I followed him into the forest. The evidence of his
path had disappeared instantly. There were no footprints, the leaves
were still again, but I walked forward without thinking. I could not
do anything else. I had to keep moving. If I stopped looking for him,
it was over. Love, life, meaning… over.

What can I say? I think this is one of the best books I have ever read so far.
It's like those Harry Porter books which would leave you hooked on it.
And once you have read the books you would think the movie didn't quite
do any justice to the books.

"But if you ever bring her back damaged again —
and I don’t care whose fault it is; I don’t care if she merely trips,
or if a meteor falls out of the sky and hits her in the head —
if you return her to me in less than the perfect condition that I
left her in, you will be running with three legs.
Do you understand that, mongrel?"

The excitement never died at all, in fact it only increases as you go
to the next book. I couldn't put the books down as I really needed to
know what was going to happen next. But now it kinda bothers me that
it's all going to be over and it will take a long time before I finally
get to read something as exciting and as good as this.

I opened my eyes and found his open, too, staring at my face.
It made no sense when he looked at me that way.
Like I was the prize rather than the outrageously lucky winner.

2009-03-30T20:27:00.017+08:00

Pukka Toy
Knowing how much I adore my Pukka, someone got me a gift which
looks just like him. Best part this toy even shakes his head
non-stop which can be alittle addictive and it can end up making you
swing your head to the right and left if you looked at it just alittle too much.

Really adorable but here comes the problem. There were some major issues
getting it fixed up. Especially when it came with such intense encrypted instructions
which only a manjen can figure out.

Why? Cause it's literally translated from mandarin.

Bless the China people!

Would like to upload a video of the Pukka look-alike shaking its head
right to left, but I'm feeling too tired so I shall do it some other time.

Till then, happy figuring out the instructions.

2009-03-27T23:48:00.003+08:00

Hug

It's just an image of speech. You don't look like a porcupine, really.

2009-03-16T23:58:00.005+08:00

Try
I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all.
The more I learn, the more I know
The more I try, the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me.

Then I see you standing there,
Wanting more from me,
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try.

All of the moments that already passed,
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
That is something we never will be.

That's wonderful and that's life
That's you,
And this is me.

2009-01-17T02:58:00.005+08:00

Rusty

2009-01-04T02:11:00.004+08:00

Pretty Clouds
Something that caught my eyes while on my ride to JB today.

2008-12-27T19:08:00.003+08:00

2009
Mistakes not to be repeated in 2009

Neglecting my friends - They are the ones who are always there
Closing my life's options - Options are always good
Giving it up all for one person's happiness - He/She aint gonna be worth it
Taking to much effort in anything - This world is full of people who don't appreciate
Neglecting myself - It should have been about me first
Dealing with other people's moods swings - You can go fuck yourself
Revealing too much about myself to people I presume I can trust - Trust no-one
Allowing people too close to me - They will only make use of me
Not spending time with Mom, Dad & Pukka - They love me without expecting anythin in return

Trusting people easily - No-one is as nice as they pretend to be
Giving in too much - People take too much and give nuthin in return
Lending my friends money - The money never comes back
Forgetting the rule about 50/50 - It's all about give & take
Being with people who expect too much - It can't always be about yourself

No new year's resolution this time, all I hope to do is to avoid
all these mistakes which I've done this year.

2008-12-26T22:00:00.004+08:00

Christmas
Sometimes, its the little things that people do that shows
how much they care about you.

Thanks for all the lovely christmas gifts!

2008-12-20T04:28:00.005+08:00

2008-12-19T05:16:00.002+08:00

Like A Boy
I wish I could be a boy for a day,
So that I could understand how the game is being played
I get to put myself first and make the rules as I go,
For it always gets to be my way or no way.

I would make a woman fall madly inlove with me
I would make her tell me how she feels about me
I would show my anger and my mood swings to that girl who loves me
For I will never show it to my friends cause they mean a lot to me
I would take her for granted cause I know she loves me
No matter what I do, I know she will always come back to me.

But maybe if I really was a guy for a day
I would be a better person and treat a woman way better,
For I know what a woman goes through and how much it hurts her
to be treated that way by the guy she's madly inlove with.

I won’t brush her off when she needs to talk,
I won’t tell her I don’t feel like talking and act so cold,
I won’t show her my mood swings and take her for granted,
It would never be always about me especially if she means a lot to me.
I would tell her what she means to me and not play mind games with her,
I won't change my mind and heart like the way I change my bed sheets.

If only women could switch roles and start acting like boys.

Don't we all wish?

2008-11-10T12:12:00.005+08:00

Catch Him & Keep Him

Every girl should read his book called "Catch him & Keep Him".
His book would simply amaze you and make you understand how truly
complicated MEN can be.

A story from him which some girls might find strangely familiar.

I find it damn familiar having to hear this from various of
my girlfriends couple of times and no, this is not one of your story.

So don't be alarmed.

A sad little story:-

Once, there was a woman who was very attracted to a particular man.

At first, he was just another good-looking guy but the more she got
to know him, the more she began to feel drawn to him and the more time
she spent with him, the more that attraction grew into a deep
emotional attachment.

But there was one problem.

As her emotional attachment grew stronger and stronger, she also
grew more and more insecure.

Why?

Because she couldn't tell whether or not he felt the same way towards her.
Sometimes he would talk to her and say things that led her to
believe that they shared a special connection, but nothing ever
progressed past the "friendship" stage.

There was an occasional glance, an occasional email or call from him
and a few times, he even opened up about something personal or emotional,
and maybe even shared a secret or two with her.

But something was wrong with the picture.

He just wasn't acting like a man who was "falling in love".
He was acting like a friend, but at times, even more distant
than a friend would be.

And things seemed to run hot and cold. Sometimes he would
call her and talk to her, and sometimes he would ignore her
and close himself off.

The insecurity that she felt from all this became a spiral that
amplified itself and the more insecure she became, the more afraid
she grew of "screwing things up" or "scaring him off" by starting
conversations or asking him if he was interested in her and why
he didn't ask her out.

After spending days and nights obsessing over this guy,
the woman finally arrived at the conclusion that if he only knew
how SHE FELT, that he would feel the same way.

So she made a bold move. She TOLD HIM how she felt.

She confessed her feelings and let him know that she wanted to be with him.

He seemed to respond well to this, and they even kissed
and spent time alone and she felt like some sort of
"breakthrough" had finally happened.

But soon after, he quickly withdrew, didn't call her and wasn't
really "available" to her.

This only confused the woman more. She didn't know how to take it.

Did it mean that he really loved her too, but that he was afraid of something?

Did it mean that he wasn't ready for a long-term relationship?

Did it mean that she hadn't tried hard enough or really explained
everything she was thinking and feeling?

She finally decided that she couldn't go on like this anymore
she had to be with him.

She had to make sure that he knew just how much she wanted to be
with him so she took a big step, bought him a symbolic gift and wrote
him a letter again confessing her feelings.

And then, something unthinkable happened.

Either he didn't reply at all. (Ouch!) Or he didn't respond in the
way she had hoped. In fact, he seemed IRRITATED by her, and maybe
even a little angry.(double ouch!)

When she tried to get in touch with him after that, he told her
he couldn't talk right now, that he was in the middle of something
and he'd "call you back a little later."

But DAYS went by, and he never called.

Over the following months, the woman tried desperately to understand
what went wrong and what happened.

THE END.

This story is timeless. It resonates with so many women.

Like Christian Carter said if a man isn't ATTRACTED to a
woman, all of her attempts to share a connection,
convince him to like her, and to feel and share
love will BACKFIRE.

In other words, they not only DON'T WORK-
they can actually make things WORSE.

They make him run.

Even though a woman might have nothing but the most loving and
positive emotional intentions in the long run, these actually
cause the woman feeling them to do things that make the man pull
away and sometimes for good.

It sucks, doesn't it?

For more details on his book, you may refer to:-
http://www.CatchHimKeepHim.com

Why does it always have to be so hard, eh?

And Men say women are complicated. Sheeesh.

2008-11-08T10:13:00.003+08:00

Horror-Scopes

Virgo
Mercury is in Jupiter, which is a capital offence in some countries
but Jupiter isn't complaining and neither should you.
You have a tendency to whine.

Libra
You don't value harmony so this is going to be a pretty
miserable week for people who stay around you as hell riders
like you without mufflers on the bikes will be roaring
frequently down Yishun street 72 every night. Please
move to another neighbourhood and stop terrorizing people
around you. Karma will bite your backside.

Scorpio
This is going to be a relatively quiet week for you. New bands
get all the gigs and you are left standing alone. This
would be the perfect week to meet up with long lost
friends to tangkap in the coffeshop for Teh-O.

Sagittarus
Your fun-loving and out-going nature will get you into trouble
again. Why don't you just grow up?

Capricorn
You are surrounded by pyschos who will keep asking you on a dates.
Avoid them at all times. Looks can be decieving. They may look
like an idiot and sound like an idiot but do not be fooled.
They are idiots.

Leo
You like to be in the limelight. Your personality
can be overwhelming like the perfume you often wear.
Try to acquire some inhibitions.

Aries
Anything that happens to you this week could happen to you
next week too. So refer back to last weeks horror-scope.

Cancer
You have a serious disease and you should look into it. If
you plan to have children, please try to plan so that they
will not fall under a star sign that sounds like a disease.

Gemini
Your split personality makes it extremely difficult to make
an accurate forecast for you. So please go away.

Pisces
Many things will happen to you this week. They will
vaguely resemble things that happened to you last week and
magically they will also happen the week after. So remember
to do the same things.

Taurus
Friends can be good for more than fun and games they can
be the greatest therapists you will ever meet in your life.
Just remember that when they offer you their honest feedback
that you look like shit, you probably do.

Aquarius
Someone, possibly a stranger, will perform an act of kindness so
random that it might leave you feeling a little bit suspicious of them.
You are right. They are only after your money.

2008-10-30T23:00:00.003+08:00

Roses, Their No & Their Meanings
A single bloom of red rose love at first sight or "I still love you"
A single rose in any colour indicates simplicity and gratitude
2 roses mutual feelings
3 roses "I love you"
7 roses "I'm infatuated with you"
9 roses "We'll be together forever"
10 roses "You are perfect"
11 roses "You are My Treasured One"
12 roses "Be mine!"
13 roses "Friends forever"
15 roses "I'm truly sorry"
20 roses "I'm truly sincere towards you"
21 roses "I'm dedicated to you"
24 roses "Forever yours"
25 roses Congratulations
36 roses "Remembering our romantic times"
40 roses "My genuine love for you"
50 roses Unconditional love
99 roses "I will love you all the days of my life"
101 roses "I'm completely devoted to you"
108 roses "Will you marry me?"
999 roses "I love you till the end of time"

2008-10-21T23:59:00.002+08:00

Public Display of Affection

I'm okay with the idea of seeing couples hug and kiss each
other in public. I personally feel public display of affection
is alright as long as they keep their limits and not go to
the extend of someone passing a comment for them to get a room.

There are times you will come across loving couples who seem
to be lost in their own world. It is obvious that they are totally
unaware of the people around them and it is more like they just can't
keep their eyes or hands off each other. It's kinda nice to see
such couple at times, because it makes you realise how nice it
would be to have someone to share such special moments and strong
intense chemistry with. They make you wish if you had someone like
that or if you already had someone special you would end up missing
them after seeing the couples.

But on the other hand, you also have those who show public display on affection
on purpose just to get attention. And I came across one today.

I was on my way back home after work when I saw this two Indian couples
who walked into the train. It's obvious they are kids, worst they were
wearing their school uniforms. The girl stared at me the minute she stepped
in and I still wonder why. She then pulled her boyfriend and stood
right infront of me almost as tho there was nowhere else to stand.

Well, they seemed almost like a perfect couple - you know where the boyfriend is
probably 1.86m tall and the girlfriend is a 1.5 midget. She kept hugging her
boyfriend so tightly and each time she reached to hug her boyfriend, she
literally turned around to look at me as if to check if I was seeing that.

People like them make me feel sad. It's obvious that they have trust issues
with the love ones. But it was kinda cute tho how she thought I actually
gave a damn that she had a ugly boyfriend.

Soon, the whole scene became quite disturbing. And as much as I
tried to look away, having the whole drama going on right infront of me
was abit too hard to ignore. Each time she reached to hug the boyfriend
her school skirt was raising higher and higher and she was obviously
oblivious to that. But soon after a while it became quite entertaining.
It seemed almost like a baby monkey clinging on it's father monkey for
it's dear life. Best part, the bigger monkey was busy checking out
something else.

People like them never fail to amuse me.

2008-10-20T19:11:00.005+08:00

A Better Tomorrow
I dream of a better tomorrow where:-

Chickens will no longer taste so good and I would find them cute.
So that I will stop eating chickens like how I stopped eating lambs.
I hear lambs crying in my head each time I see them dead.
"Baaaaahhhh...."

Cuckooroaches becomes extinct like the dodo birds.
And I chose to use dodo as an example rather than dinosaurs
because just the word dodo makes me laugh now.
DODO!!

Chickens can freely cross the roads and not
have their motives questioned.
Would you like it if everyone was to start asking
you why did YOU cross the road?

People will stop being so afraid of butterflies.
They dont have a freakin' mouth to bite.

Crows will stop being such big bullies and share the
food with the pigeons. Or may the pigeons be given the
mighty powers to doo doo on the crows head.
Doo doo!!

I get to keep a dog. One just like Russell which loves to
bite me and be bitten by me.
I miss him so much

I dream of a better tomorrow where:-

People around me will be honest that
they are attached and give their better half some respect
instead of going around saying that they are single.
Especially when they have stated in their friendster or
facebook account that they are in a relationship and it's
filled with their girlfriend's ever-so-sweet
comments and testimonials.
Please knock first and then go screw yourself.

Ladies who are blessed with a nice dude as a boyfriend
would learn to appreciate them and not treat them like crap.
If you have commitment issues, click
your heels together 3 times & you go girl & don't come back.

Everyone I meet will come with a Manual Book titled
Understanding (The person's Name).
I promise to take the time to read it.

People will stop judging me based on what they
read from my blog. They would stop thinking that
they know me just because they read my thoughts
and what I've been through.
You know nuthin’.

People will stop saying I'm complicated when they
seem more complicated than an algebra equation even
with multiple choice answers.
Can't even use a calculator how am I to figure you out?

I find someone who can sing SaNaSa
in perfect tune with me.
To annoy the living daylights off the
people around me.

I dream of a better tomorrow where:-

People will stop acting like
they are sleeping in the trains and give up their
seats to someone who needs it more.
If only I can shake them by the shoulders and
Scream WAKE UP!!

People will learn to donate more and expect less.
People respect the elders.
People are willing to offer help.
What goes around comes around.

I dream of a better tomorrow where:-

People around me will realise that I'm
like a mirror. I reflect back on what's shown.
When you’re nice, I’m good.
When you're bad, I'm way better.

People agree that I am a simple girl living in a
complicated world and surrounded by complicated people.
It's them and not me.

People I have ever liked, dated before or had a major crush on
will stop coming back getting all serious about me after
I'm so over them.
Now you will never see, just what was
meant to be so don’t come asking me to be the one.
Cause now I know it too, I’ve seen it through it too
You just couldn’t prove to be the one.

I can say what I'm thinking and feeling without
holding back so much.
Would you think I am a freak if I told you what I honestly feel?

There will come a day I can replace Pukka with a real life person.
Someone who smiles like a retard just like him

I will no longer suffer from philophobia.
Are you the one who can cure me?

I dream of a better tomorrow where:-

I will stop being the first suspect every time a prank is being played.
It wasn't me. Ruwelliee. I promise upon your underwear?

People will genuinely get scared when I take the effort
to hide, sneak and BOO them.
Or atleast act scared and put some effort in the acting.

People around me are able to offer me better dares.
Play or you will never know.

I dream of a better tomorrow where:-

Singapore wont be so humid.
Make-up is melting too quickly.

I can take long leave next year to go UK for holiday.
Anyone wanna company me? And I mean company not stalk me.

My office will hire cute guys and stop hiring more women.
I’m sick of being surrounded by women.

I will stop having blur vision.
I will put the lens meant for my right eye on my right eye
and not on my left eye like every other time.

My pillows will grow hands and legs to crawl back into bed
whenever they fall off my bed.
I can’t get back to sleep each time I wake up
to pick you up

I can replace my 6 pillows with one person and one pillow.
Make that 2 pillows.

If only all these would happen magically.

Happiness

2008-10-19T20:15:00.001+08:00

Khushi is:

1. Falling in love.

2. Laughing so hard till your face hurts.

3. Chocolates & Ice-creams.

4. No lines at the supermarket.

5. A special glance.

6. Getting mail.

7. Getting a F1 wannabe cab driver when you are in a hurry.

8. Hearing your favourite song on the radio.

9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.

10. Having 6 pillows all to yourself.

11. White Daisies & Red roses.

12. A bubble bath.

13. Giggling.

14. A good conversation.

15. Drinking cold 7-up on a hot day.

16. Getting a SMS from someone you were thinking of that very moment.

17. After falling off or tripping laughing at yourself.

18. Thinking of someone and smiling to yourself like a cuckoonut.

19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.

20. Getting wet in the rain.

21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.

22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.

23. Laughing at an inside joke.

24. Friends.

25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.

26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.

27. The first kiss with someone you have been wanting to kiss for a long time.

28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.

29. Playing with a puppy or a kitten.

30. Having someone play with your hair.

31. Sweet dreams.

32. Hot milo on a cold day.

33. Having someone bite you lovingly.

34. Swinging on swings.

35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger and seeing him smile shyly at you.

36. Making chocolate chip cookies.

37. Having someone hug you from the back lovingly and refusing to let go.

38. Holding hands with someone you care about.

39. Running into an old friend and getting tight hugs and big kisses from them.

40. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much-desired present from you.

41. Watching the sunrise.

42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.

43. Knowing that somebody misses you especially when you secretly miss them too.

44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.

45. Playing soap bubbles with your loved ones.

45. Having a toy that simply puts a smile on your face when you just look at it.

Now tell me what makes you happy?

Bubbles!

2008-10-17T23:35:00.000+08:00

I adore bubbles like how a fat kid adores cakes.

My happy Friday night!

I decided to do something for Pukka.

Pukka got lil excited

Then he got all bad

Bad Pukka

Act cute!

2008-10-10T20:50:00.000+08:00

Chacha was cleaning up her stuffs to pack her belongings,
when she came across couple of stuffs which were given to her
by me. She found this long letter which I wrote to her and I
am guessing I was probably 8 or 9 based on certain
things mentioned in the letter.

I never knew I was such an angry yet a funny kid.
I have copied the letter the exact way it was written.
The actual copy of the letter with my screwed up
writing :-

Dramatic Letter Part 1

Dramatic Letter Part 2

Dramatic Letter Part 3

-------------------------------------------------------
Dear Sister Sharm,

How are you? so polite
Well it is quite awkward for me to write you a letter
when I'm living in the same house with you.
But I guess I've got no choice. It has been two days
ever since I last spoke to you.
What's your problem? Don't pleh pleh ah!

Perhaps you can try talking it out or 'writing' it out.
Sometimes I really dont understand you.
Remember the Saturday that we spend together?
I thought we 'both' had fun.
Probably sitting in the last row of the cinema throwing popcorns infront and
turning back to the wall saying "eh stop throwing!"
So had we decided to make Saturday our date day.
But when I told you so on Tuesday, you easily said "Got Mi?"
Chacha started using Singlish when she was a mere kid
Did you ever realised how hurt I got?
You invited me to the concert with you.
Remember it wasn't the other way round!

I was so happy that I couldn't wait for Saturday that I
thought maybe we could go to the temple together on Friday.
But I have no 'hell of an idea' what happened for you to
create a scene yesterday. Maybe it could be your darling
sweetheart friends or your own 'stupid' brain nasty child
which had made you behave uncivilased what?
LIKE YOU HAD SAID!!
You are very selfish! Cause it's because of your own
behaviour that always makes us believe that it was your friends,
I mean 'darling' friends who made you behave like that.
I must have really hated her friends
So, whose fault is it? You have no idea
of how you were wrong by shouting yesterday.
Remember, you are supposed to set an example for me.
You are supposed to make me feel
proud of you not ashamed. Do you have any ideas how I feel when you
compare and contrast my england damn powderful
between your "darling" friends and me?
I'm your same flesh and blood "B+". I was such a cuckoo
How would you feel if mummy took any
outsider and supported her than you or me? I don't know for
you, as you are cold blood cuckoodile but if you do have feelings like me,
you would feel very hurt. Infact you would feel like killing the person.
In fact I really do! I was such an angry kid

Well, you know what it makes me feel?
I feel that perhaps your "hearts" (friends) told you about the
incident, with, Mini, I must have loved commas back then
that they were not happy about it. So they didnt like me, so you
created a scene yesterday, so that I would say that you go ahead.

At this point I got tired of writing and started scribbling in caps

ONLY YOU KNOW THE TRUTH!
FORGIVE ME IF I WAS RUDE, AS I HAD TO RELIEVE MYSELF.
PERHARPS TALKING TO GISMO WOULD BE A BETTER RESULT!

Gismo as in from the movie GREMILINS.
But I think I gave the toy to Cookie since he looked like one
himself with his huge green eyes.

(P.T.O) Please turn over

Actually the main purpose of me writing to you was to ask if
you would lend me your Awa earphones just for one day.
But I guess I talked too much.

ANGERY -> FORGET IT.
Hahahahaha!!!

-------------------------------------------------------

I can be such a cuckoonut. Mom burst out into laughter when I
read the letter to her. Gosh the silly things I am capable of doing.
Wouldn't you love to have someone like me as your younger sista?

Anyway, Justin buzzed me online just now. His msg was ever so classic.
First question - how was my love life and the minute I told him
I was single, he asked when would I be free to meet up with him.
And when I tried to brush him off saying I've been busy but I'll
try to meet him soon, he started giving me his weekly schedule details
and started bugging me to confirm on a date with him.

FREAK ALERT!!

Honestly, I would have to be out of my mind to meet
you alone again, Justin. How can I ever forget about the
last time I met you alone? Not especially after you freaked me
out by practically throwing yourself on me and how
I had such a hard time running away from you.
It almost ended up looking like a classic black & white
Nambiyar & Saroja Devi scene.

Once bitten twice shy. Twice bitten, never try!

I have no idea what's wrong with me.
Instead of attracting men like crazy all I seem to be doing is
to attract crazy men to me.

P.S : Anyone interested in watching the House Bunny? Buzz me!
Offer is not applicable to crazy men tho.

I Was Wrong

2008-10-10T14:39:00.000+08:00

Finally someone has proved me wrong that
younger guys can act mature and responsible
I guess he would be the first fine example that the age is just a number.

There have been times I've wished I could smack him hard
and he would magically grow a year older for every smack I gave him,
and when I say a year older, I ain't referring to the age number
cause we all know a 30 year old has the capability to act like a 15 year ol.

But now I wanna take back whatever I said about him,
for I can see she's truly happy with him
and he has made her change for the better.
It's now obvious that the committment has made him much wiser
and they both have learn to accept each other.

I think I'm starting to adore him like how I used to adore the others
I am starting to like the feeling of it.

Did You Ever?

2008-10-09T22:50:00.000+08:00

I came across this poem and I couldn't help but to feel that
this is something probably every girl goes through, at some point of her life.

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.

He's only a friend, and nothing else
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying he's just a bud,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.

You get so giddy when you meet his eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretend that you don't care.

It's not right for you to be,
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he's just a friend?

Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's wrong for him to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being his girl is an impossible wish.

- Momei Qu

Mike asked me if I would consider being his girlfriend.
For a minute, I really wasn't quite sure to laugh at him or with him
But yet, I wanted to be careful not to hurt his feelings
incase he was for real and he wasn't kidding.

I'm scared of Karma biting me

I honestly dunno what got into him.
I wanted to poke his brain out when he asked me that question.
Felt like smackin' him silly like how
I've always wanted to smack Barney the purple retarded dino.
Gosh it's not even like he knows me.
Worst, he hasn't even seen the inner retard in me.
I think if I was to just show him 1/4 of the other side of me,
I would probably scare off him for good.

Maybe I should. Since most guys are into the
sophisticated high class hard-to-get material girls.
Perhaps if he saw the other side of me, he would probably run
so far away and never turn back.

*raises her eyebrows* Toing Toing

I'm starting to get worried if my bronchitis is paying me a
visit once again like every other year. The bad cough and the
off and on fever - it always starts off this way.
I really dont wanna be taking a whole load of medication again.
It's just scary and makes me feel so miserable.

God please make me get better soon.

2008-10-07T02:32:00.000+08:00

The wedding is finally over. Yay!
It went all well I guess. Even tho I didn't end up hopping,
I ended up walking about here and there non-stop.

The makeup done by the vasantham central singer, Ananthi
was absoutely gorgeous! The bride looked amazing, my mom looked hot &
Me - I wished I could look this good everyday.

It was a night of flashbacks.

DJ Harvey's music gave me flashbacks of my Bhangra nights,
Prammie, his friends, my girlfriends and our golden rule about Woh Lamhe.

Seeing Baljit at the reception, I got reminded of my Dhoom Nights.
Guess I was correct about the dude's name TJ.
The bhangra dance group indeed ended up being Baljit's dance group.

Oh well, the wedding had a happy ending. I was so glad it ended.

The Wedding Invitation Card

The left

The Right

The Sari that I have decided to wear

The bangles

The gift to the bride from Me & Mummy

Tata!

Door Gifts

Lavender Cones!

Lavender Sticks!

The Wedding Bands (My Cam has made no justice to the bling blings)

The Cert

Guest Book

Recep Table

At the Recep

Boys

The ceremony

The Dance

The Bride & The Groom!

Cheers!

Me

The Entrance (Blur Version)

The Dance (Yet Another Blur Version)

SMS From An Angel

2008-10-03T18:43:00.000+08:00

Have you ever received an sms from someone at the perfect time
saying something so meaningful at the perfect moment?

I did today which said:-

In life you'll realise that there is a purpose for every person you meet. Some are there to test you, some will use you, some will teach you & some will bring out the best in you. Some may cause you pain but you'll learn to move on. So let go of the people who can't treat you right & hold on to those who love you & see your worth.

Totally makes sense doesn't it?

P.S : I'm sorry I ditched you halfway today, Chacha :(

I'm Good

2008-09-30T03:40:00.000+08:00

I still can't believe that today I could finally look straight
into your eyes and tell you that I no longer feel a thing
You may still be looking all fly but honestly
I wouldn't even wanna keep you as a fling.

All this while you've been frontin' like you're all tough and cool
But that was only until you saw me today, when it became
obvious I was messing with your mind without even trying

I've moved on now and I'm feeling better
And I'm looking for someone who would treat me much better
But now you're tripping cause you can clearly see
that I'm no longer crazy about you like I used to be.

Well you thought that you could keep on dreaming
You thought that I won't keep on moving
I admit it for a minute you were having your way then
What can I say? I wasn't over you then.

But things have changed now
You and me - it's best you forget it
Don't you get it boy,
No matter how hard you try to remind me of all those
moments and memories we have been through,
I longer feel a thing for you.

Even when you smsed me that you actually felt like kissing me earlier,
And when you asked didn't I feel anything for you with a sad smiley,
I didn't even think twice before I replied you wryly
that I no longer felt anything for you.

And for the sad smiley - it honestly didn't affect me
Cause you never really ever did cared about me
Cause if you ever really cared about me,
it wouldn't have taken another man then
to make you understand that you want me.

It's time for us to go our ways now
and I wanna wish you all the best for your life
but I'm so glad we hung out today
For I finally realised myself that you no longer have any effect or whatsoever on me
I chose to leave suddenly because I could see you were getting lil emo & disturbed
Not that it was affecting me in any way or whatsoever
But I just felt that it would be best if I just left
And by me leaving at that very moment you were trying to reach out to me,
I'm sure that should have clearly shown you how you truly mean nuthin' to me.

What Could Happen?

2008-09-29T01:19:00.000+08:00

Sunday

2008-09-27T23:20:00.000+08:00

One more week to the wedding and I can't quite explain how nervous
I am starting to get. The crowd, the people, the Sari.

I think I need someone who has the ability to take my
attention of all these and make me less nervous to company me.
But sadly, I know for a fact that there will only be old ugly,
loud, attention seeking not-so-sexy-smelling people who would
just make me smile nervously and make me feel sick in the stomach
like I'm suffering from a horrible hang-over.

I'm scared I am going to trip and fall,
I'm worried someone would step on my sari and it would all
fall apart - like now you see me dressed and now you don't.

I'm terrified that the whole Indian crowd would make me all nervous
and make me forget how to walk and that I might start
hopping around like a constipated bunny
(not that I know how one looks like but I'm pretty sure
I would end up looking like one)

Oh well, I've still got 6 more days to worry about it and till
then I shall try my best not to think about it and to enjoy
my holidays to the max.

I've been having weird dreams lately. Dreams that seem so real and quite frightening at times. Last night I dreamt that there was this chinese dude who got stabbed in a restaurant by another dude. Somehow it felt so real and scary that when I woke up it took me a while to realise it was only a dream and it didnt happen for real. Pretty messed up.

Wafa Sultan

2008-09-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

WATCH THIS BEFORE IT'S TAKEN OFF THE WEB

It is extremely surprising that the Arab financed TV in Dubai would
allow this to air.

She is one impressive woman. Here is a powerful and amazing statement on
Al Jereeza television. The woman is Wafa Sultan, an Arab-American
psychologist from Los Angeles .

View Video

Available Positions

2008-09-22T18:50:00.000+08:00

Originally created by me for my former friendster's profile under
'Who I Want to Meet' (which was copied shamelessly by strangers & my own friends)
I have decided to reopen the positions once again.

The current available positions in my life will be:

1. Someone whom I can adore - Positions available
2. ~~Someone who adores me - Positions available~~
3. Someone to show me the real meaning of love - Position available
4. Someone to fulfill my desires - Position available
5. Someone who can make me laugh - Positions available
6. ~~Someone I can bully lovingly - Positions available~~
7. ~~Someone I can annoy - Positions available~~
8. Someone who smells good for me to sniff & cuddle - Positions available
9. Someone who can tolerate my crazy moments - Positions available
10. Someone to share 1/2 of my ice-cream waffles with - Positions available
~~11.~~ ~~Someone to share 1/2 of my Starbucks Oreo Cheesecake with - Positions available~~
12. Someone I can play Time Crisis with - Positions available
13. Someone to watch horror movies with - Positions available
~~14.~~ ~~Someone to comfort me when I'm scared - Positions available~~
~~15.~~ ~~Someone to give me a good shoulder massage - Positions available~~
16. Someone to pamper me - Positions available

Requirements:

Independent, result oriented and self-motivated
Good communication, interpersonal skills
Able to start immediately
Singaporean / PR

Interested applicants please email your resume, clearly indicating your
choice of position and your reasons for applying it together with a
passport-sized photograph (if possible).

NOTE: Only shortlisted candidates will be notified.

My Mission In Life

2008-09-21T21:00:00.000+08:00

My Mission In Life : To Stay Away From Confused People

Please stay away from me if:-

You dunno what you want
You can't make up your mind
You are confused about your relationship with your gf
You have no clue about your future
You have no idea what you are doing now
You can't decide to tell people if you are attached or single (When you are attached)
You can't decide if you are into men or women or both
You can't decide what you want from me
You are confused about how life works
Your ambition is to be a professional confuser
You have the ability to get confused that I am someone else
You think 'complicated' is a cool word
You change your mind like diapers
You are confused if the chicken came first or the egg came first
You are confused and lost even with a map
You have body language signals that confuses people
You mistook me for someone who gives a damn

For I am a confused person myself who gets easily confused even with not so
confusing things. And so when someone like you comes along the way
I end up getting more confused and start thinking that whatever that
was not that confusing is actually indeed damn confusing.

Confused? *blinks* That's my point.

But if you could clearly understand whatever I just said
and you don't have any of the above mentioned problems then
you are required in my life.

Sway

2008-09-20T04:48:00.000+08:00

Mass Murder @ Yishun

2008-09-19T12:40:00.000+08:00

There was a loud scream and a slamming noise late thursday night and
when my mom and dad went to check out what on earth
was the noise about they found a chinese woman on the ground
floor, face down with her head looking somewhat smashed.

It wasn't a pretty sight.

As neighbours ran down to check her, they apparently saw
someone with a knife beside her body who then ran off
when he saw them approaching.

The chinese woman was said to be staying at the 6th
floor and no-one knows if she had jumped down from
the building or she had been pushed down.

And just when we thought one dead person was already hard to
swallow for the early morning, we were then told there were 2 more
women who were found dead in the flat and one was
taken to the hospital with multiple injuries.

And as for the suspect, they apparently caught him and they are now
investigating the case.

Cool Water

2008-09-18T21:00:00.000+08:00

I couldn't help but to smile non-stop today each time I inhaled into you.
You had me going deycraze'o all day long, all over you.
May God bless the dude who invented you,
cause I am so damn inlove with you.

I wanna put you all over my pillows and on my bed sheets,
I wanna spray you all over Pukka and make him smell just as sweet.

I wanna splash you over people that I dislike,
people I don't want near me;
cause how can I ever bring myself to hate anyone
who smells as good as thee?

If I've got an infatuation or the hots for someone,
I would pray that may he never uses you when he comes to see me
Cause with you I would end up wanting him more than before,
since he would be so damn irresistible to me.

You are my aphrodisiac and you can keep me
feelin high for the longest time,
You naturally make me do little silly things
even without consuming 3 jugs of Vodka lime.

I guess I could never be cool around you
tho they named you Cool Water
Sadly you would always make me go loco over you
Maybe someday, I would get over you.

3rd Week Of September 08

2008-09-16T16:04:00.000+08:00

I am so glad that the 15 minutes taken to write my
yesterday's entry on 'Soulmates' did knock some
sense into a friend's head.

Actually honestly babe, you were the reason why I wrote that entry.
And I am really happy to know that you finally plan to do something about it.
P.S I'm sorry for being half asleep, half the time speaking gibberish
and for putting you on hold for couple of times while I counted my pillows
and picked them up from the floor. It was afterall 3:45am.

Anyway instead of emailing all the usual horoscope freaks weekly,
I decided to just post the whole thing on my blog for everyone to
view. So here is this week's!

For the period of Monday, September 15, 2008
through Sunday, September 21, 2008

Aries (March 21-April 19)
Your itinerary of events goes off without a hitch this week.
Since you thrive on spontaneity, you'd prefer if things turned
out a little differently, but even you have to admit that you're
happy with the results. After your short stint in the public eye
this week, others will be observing your actions more closely than
ever, so strive to show leadership and calculated decisions.
Getting enough time with a close one for even one private discussion
proves tough, so you may have to postpone or else acknowledge that
a few others might overhear what you have to say. Use the financial
tips you picked up this week by applying them to your own spending
habits, and you'll find that keeping track of money really isn't
as hard as you always thought it was.

Compatibility
Excellent - Taurus, Gemini, Libra, Capricorn, Pisces
Good - Aries, Leo, Virgo, Sagittarius, Aquarius
Fair - Cancer, Scorpio
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Taurus (April 20-May 20)
You're something of a Renaissance person this week, playing so
many roles that you may not even be sure which one suits you best
when the week is over. Luckily, you don't have to choose—but if a
similar situation arises in the future, it might be wise to whittle
your repertoire down to one or two specialty areas. Take in some
art with a loved one this week. The works you see will spur creative
discussion, and you'll likely discover a few surprises about that
person and their tastes. Store the information away; it may be
useful during a time when you're looking for a gift. Speaking of
gifts, be generous with your money this week. No one expects you
to give more than you can afford, but even a modest amount would
really help out someone you know.

Compatibility
Excellent - Aries, Taurus, Virgo, Sagittarius
Good - Gemini, Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces
Fair - Leo, Libra, Capricorn, Aquarius
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Gemini (May 21-June 21)
When a sensitive topic comes up at work this week, others look to
you as a guide for how they should respond. You may be feeling a
little uncertain about the subject matter yourself, but you manage
to handle the situation with ease and grace. Your tact is also
a gift when it comes to a close one, who needs to hear the right
thing at a very difficult time. If it interests you, take a
while this week to think about how your communication skills could
serve you in areas outside of personal relationships. The track
record you hold for resolving disagreements and slicing to the heart
of matters would take you far in quite a few industries, so don't
hesitate to explore your options. Be conservative with finances,
and don't second-guess the power of saving.

Compatibility
Excellent - Taurus, Cancer, Libra, Capricorn, Aquarius
Good - Aries, Gemini, Leo, Scorpio
Fair - Virgo, Sagittarius, Pisces
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Cancer (June 22-July 22)
This week, it's time to upgrade, so analyze your life for areas
that could benefit from improvement. Everything is fair game, and
key categories to think about include redecorating, a new fitness
regime, a more productive time-management plan, and a boost in
social activity. Don't be overwhelmed, and take your new ideas
one step at a time. In a few weeks, stop to reassess—you'll be
amazed at the change. If you need a little help this week, count
on a loved one to catch your back. It's OK to pile a few added
responsibilities onto that person as long as you're gracious about
it and you thank them in a big way when the time comes. Catch up at
work by tackling your tasks in chronological order. Even if it
doesn't seem to make the most sense, it'll help lighten your load.

Compatibility
Excellent - Taurus, Scorpio, Capricorn, Aquarius
Good - Gemini, Cancer, Leo, Sagittarius, Pisces
Fair - Aries, Virgo, Libra
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Leo (July 23-Aug 22)
You'll be tempted to defer to the judgment of others this week,
but it's a smarter move to make your own opinion heard. You may
struggle with the thought that your point of view isn't as relevant
as that of others, but the only way to increase your confidence is
to speak up. If you can, try it at first in an informal setting—such
as a casual debate with friends over dinner. Then work your way up
to matters and places that carry more weight. Both you and a loved
one will be feeling a little on the lazy side this week, so don't
let yourself be pressured to follow through with big, energetic
plans you may have made before. There's no shame in postponing
to a later time.

Compatibility
Excellent - Gemini, Virgo, Scorpio, Capricorn
Good - Aries, Cancer, Leo, Libra, Aquarius
Fair - Taurus, Sagittarius, Pisces
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Virgo (Aug. 23-Sept. 22)
Even though you may feel as if you're not getting much done at
work this week, take a moment before the weekend to examine the
pile of things you've accomplished. Odds are, it will be far more
than you thought. If it bothers you that you can't measure your
results in a concrete way, try making a chart and timeline for
work projects that you can add to whenever you complete a stage.
A close one might not be forthcoming with information that affects
you this week, so you'll be left in the dark when it comes to how
you should act. It seems that person made a genuine mistake rather
than intentionally trying to confuse you, so be gentle when you
respond. Saving yourself frustration will also give you extra energy
for everything else on your plate this week.

Compatibility
Excellent - Aries, Leo, Libra, Capricorn
Good - Taurus, Virgo, Scorpio, Pisces
Fair - Gemini, Cancer, Sagittarius, Aquarius
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Libra (Sept. 23-Oct. 23)
You're under a little bit of self-induced pressure this week, but
you manage to meet and even exceed your high standards with hardly any effort.
The key is your relaxed attitude, as you're convinced that things will
turn out how they're meant to be. Others could learn a lot from you,
especially a close friend. Don't go out of your way to act as an
example for that person, but do share your opinion if you're given
the chance. Luck is on your side this week when it comes to love,
and you find your relationship with a close one is heading exactly
in the direction you'd like it to go. You almost feel afraid you might
jinx it, but rest easy, because you've earned this. Keep your
financial information confidential this week, and offer generic
answers if someone you know starts asking specific questions.

Compatibility
Excellent - Gemini, Leo, Capricorn, Aquarius
Good - Aries, Virgo, Libra, Sagittarius
Fair - Taurus, Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces
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Scorpio (Oct. 24-Nov 21)
Your style really comes into its own this week, and you'll find
several modes of expression that seem to bring out the true you.
If others seem uncertain at first, being dramatic and funny about
your creative choices will help everyone cool it a little. You may
find that you're not seeing as much of a loved one lately as you
usually do—if that's the case, seek out that person to ask what's up.
Even if the answer is something you have to work to resolve, it will
be better if you find that out as soon as possible. During the first
part of the week, you may feel like you're in a tangled web at work.
To break free, you need to prioritize and give most of your attention
to big projects that you can clear away quickly.

Compatibility
Excellent - Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, Aquarius, Pisces
Good - Gemini, Cancer, Virgo, Sagittarius
Fair - Aries, Libra, Capricorn
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Sagittarius (Nov. 22-Dec 21)
There are a lot of surprises in store for you this week, and
situations may not be what they seem, so avoid reacting quickly to
what you see or hear. Instead, be patient and wait to gain a full
understanding of each experience. Others will appreciate your
objectivity, and you'll notice that you feel calmer and more at
ease if you don't act out immediately. Take it slow with a loved
one as well, as you'll need time to feel out that person's sense
of purpose this week. No one is going to give up on you, so don't
worry if you don't grasp it right away. As time goes on, focus on
trying to anticipate that person's moods. It's a good time for you
financially, so think about sharing the wealth with those you know and love.

Compatibility
Excellent - Cancer, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Capricorn, Pisces
Good - Aries, Taurus, Libra, Aquarius
Fair - Gemini, Leo, Virgo
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Capricorn (Dec. 22-Jan 19)
You have a lot of certainty in your life right now, which suits you
just fine. For the first time in a while, you feel as if you know
exactly where you are, where you're going, and how you're going to
get there. Your personal relationships are stable and a great source
of pride for you. To keep all of that up, just make sure to avoid
being overly complacent. It's important to continue to get out and
take risks, so don't give up your sense of adventure! If a close
one suggests a few familiar activities this week, counter with
something new. As a pair, it will help the two of you to challenge
yourselves. At the same time, feel free to fall back into the
familiar when you most need a sense of comfort.

Compatibility
Excellent - Aries, Cancer, Libra, Capricorn
Good - Gemini, Leo, Virgo, Sagittarius
Fair - Taurus, Scorpio, Aquarius, Pisces
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Aquarius (Jan 20-Feb. 18)
There's a big event going on this week, and it would be wise to
keep your expectations realistic. You'll enjoy yourself no matter
how the plans finally end up, so think twice about following a
rigid, inflexible schedule. If you allow a little room for error,
you'll be far more pleased with the outcome. Stick some extra
spending money in your pocket—even if you'd prefer to save it,
you may need it this week, and stocking extra means you won't have
to borrow from others. If a close one has been working overtime
lately, give that person a break. They understand that you want
their time, but a considerate move might be to show up for a
short visit at work rather than ask that they leave in order
to be with you.

Compatibility
Excellent - Aries, Gemini, Cancer, Sagittarius
Good - Leo, Libra, Scorpio, Aquarius, Pisces
Fair - Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn
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Pisces (Feb 19-March 20)
Others around you are experiencing a great deal of success this
week, and you're glad to share in their happiness. During the
festivities, someone might question how you're progressing
with your own projects. Tell the truth—if your own measure
of success is different, just say so. As long as you're happy
with what you're achieving, others won't mind if your goals
are a little unconventional. When you're back in your home
environment, you'll feel comfortable and overwhelmingly thankful
for all that you do have. Be carefree with a loved one this week,
and make that person your first priority. Joy will jump out at
you in the strangest of places, but you'll love every moment of
it. Remember why you do the things you love so much, and focus
on those activities if you need any inspiration in the weeks to come.

Compatibility
Excellent - Taurus, Virgo, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Pisces
Good - Aries, Cancer, Aquarius
Fair - Gemini, Leo, Libra, Capricorn
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Soulmate

2008-09-15T20:40:00.000+08:00

Soulmate is a term sometimes used to designate someone
with whom one has a feeling of deep and natural affinity,
friendship, love, intimacy, sexuality, spirituality and compatibility.

A related concept is that of the twin flame or
twin soul – which is thought to be the ultimate soulmate,
the one and only other half of one's soul, for which all souls
are driven to find and join.

One of the theory of soulmates, presented by Aristophanes in
Plato's Symposium, is that humans originally were combined of
four arms, four legs, and a single head made of two faces, but
Zeus feared their power and split them all in half, condemning
them to spending their lives searching for the other half
to complete them.

The whole theory sounds evil but yet this could just be a fiction.
But if this is true then it would totally make sense why some couples
actually end up looking alike (almost like brothers & sisters).

Some believe that souls are literally made and fated to
be the mates of each other, or to play certain other important
roles in each other's lives. So what happens if your mate
ends up finding someone else not realizing you are the one
meant for him/her? Does that mean you are screwed for life?

Soulmates or not I think it's already hard to find someone
you can have a strong chemistry with these days. It's kinda rare
to find someone who can make you laugh or smile by just being
themselves and without even trying. Sometimes even just the
thought of them would do the magic and brighten your day.

I personally feel it's extraordinary to meet such people these days
and when we do, it would only make sense for us to hold them close
and to not let them go. Though improbable it's not impossible,
it may even turn into a love that could be unstoppable.
And who knows, they could end up being your soulmate
or even better - your twin soul.

Do you believe in the things that were just meant to be?

Countdown

2008-09-14T20:42:00.000+08:00

Lesbians

2008-09-13T03:26:00.000+08:00

I have no idea where the hell is my email address being reflected
but every week I get a lesbian adding me on MSN.

It's almost like as though I have a subscription to weekly Lesbians.

I have been having this problem for the longest time that
I decided to open up another MSN account using a whole new email
address which only selective people have and which the email
address is not being used for any sorts of forms or online
application sign up. But now I have started to get them on
my new MSN ID as well.

As these email addresses appear normal I approve the add in
case it could be a friend. But everytime, instead of seeing a
familiar face, I get greeted by a girl with her half naked
display picture.

Interesting? I don't think so.

Curious about how they got my email address, I try to respond to
their first message instead of an immediate block and delete.
Unfortunately I have never been successful. Despite explaining to
them that I am into guys and not ladies, they eventually start
asking me weird questions and start showing me even more
disturbing pictures of themselves.

Disturbing for me, exciting for you.

Well, it's not that I am against lesbians but I just don't get sexually attracted
to women. Just the thought of kissing another girl in the mouth makes
me go ewwwwww. If they wanna talk as normal friends I'm cool with it, but
instead they always try to push their luck thinking their naked pictures
would eventually change my mind and make me talk dirty with them.

Change my mind - Oh yes they were successful at it.
I always end up changing my mind that adding them and
thinking I could have a normal conversation was a terrible idea.

**Block & Delete**
In fact if there was an option to select forever, I would have
that checked as well.

And as for their various half-naked, fully-naked, side-view, hole-view
breast-view pictures - they leave me tramautized for the rest of the day,
sometimes even weeks.

And as for bisexual people, well I believe there is no such thing
as bisexual..Just greedy people.

Weekly Forecast - Sep 8 - Sep 14 2008

2008-09-09T03:38:00.000+08:00

Capricorn (Dec. 22-Jan 19)

You're thinking big this week, and concepts make more sense to you
in metaphors than in practically drawn terms. (huh?)
You may not be sure yet how to express all of your thoughts
eloquently, but that will come in time.
Instead of making your ideas public, flesh them out privately and
brainstorm practical applications for them.
(I shall not blog for the next few days just to be safe).

When it finally does come time to share them, you'll be ready.
Even though you normally spend a good amount of time with a close one,
this week you seem to be almost inordinately attracted to that person
(damn).

Be careful not to overwhelm them—it might be best to
handle your feelings one small step at a time. If you do
decide to bring it up, stay on the casual side so as not to
make the conversation overly melodramatic.
(I refuse to say anything).

Compatibility
Excellent - Taurus, Virgo, Scorpio, Capricorn, Aquarius (Stay put)
Good - Aries, Cancer, Libra, Pisces (Step up)
Fair - Gemini, Leo, Sagittarius (Back off just alittle bit)

Click here if you wanna know for your sign.

What I Honestly Mean When I Say

2008-09-04T16:22:00.000+08:00

Rachel

2008-09-03T20:00:00.000+08:00

1. Rachel's full name is Rachel Khoo Li Wen
2. Rachel is married n her hubby's name is Gary
3. She loves to eat bee hoon
4. She got two dogs, Toby & Tamy
5. She stays in Chua Chu Kang
6. She got two sisters, Sarah & Vanessa
7. Her parents stay in Hougang
8. She has worked in Singtel & SingPost before
9. She is short tempered
10. She hates Indians tho she adores me, my immediate family,
Priya, her immediate family n dinesh.
11. Rachel loves to take cab
12. She loves spicy food
13. She likes her hubby's cooking
14. She doesn't have a house phone
15. She likes forever friends bears
16. She loves to shop for her babies
17. Shes L.O.U.D
18. Shes straight to the point
19. She can't stand people with BO
20. She drinks both Tea n Coffee
21. She likes doing her batches n credit card orders in a red pen
22. She uses Gatsby face blotter
23. When she is sleepy she likes to listen to music
24. Her best friends are from her primary and sec school
25. Shes got loads of pics as her screensaver in office.
26. Shes got a new phone
27. Shes been with BL for more than 2 years
28. Her food must come with sambal or chillie
29. She likes mac spicy burger
30. She likes bubble tea
31. She loves prawn rolls
32. Shes got a red "flying" skirt
33. Her hair is chestnut color by nature
34. Her eyes are medium brown
35. She can't stand her hair curly
36. A good hair day is when her hair & fringe is straight.
37. Used to be a sony erricson person
38. Enjoys talkin on the phone with Alim
39. Her table is usually messy and her stuffs will flow over to my table @ times.
40. She is Batchaphobic
41. Her office computer login password is tob*tam***
42. She is born on 31 October 1979
43. She likes to bullies me and roll me around in my chair.
44. She loves Marks & Spencer potatoe chips and biscuits
45. Her Office PC destop wallpaper is photos of her babies
46. She likes to buy everything in pair for her babies
47. She used to club in Newsroom
48. She used to be a smoker and used to smoke YSL
49. She used to have Nokia 8250 about 6 years go
50. She has a blog too

There you go darling, 50 things I know about you. Honestly,
I know more but then I shall stick to just 50.

Anyway, thanks for being so patient with me today while I sang "She Bangs" song
like 20 over times since morning.

And tomorrow I shall sing you a new song.

P.S Talk to me, tell me your name....

Dont Speak

2008-09-01T18:55:00.000+08:00

I decided to take a cab to work this morning since I was running
abit late and I had missed my usual bus.

So as I walked towards the main road, I saw this Indian dude
standing at the pathway facing the road. I had never seen him around
before and as I approached the pathway I realised he kept turning around
to look my way.

He was freaking me out just lil bit until I suddenly started having
strong vibes that he was going to speak to me.

I was totally freaked out.

So, I started chanting in the back of my mind, "Please don’t speak
to me, please don’t speak to me" as I walked towards the road
where I usually take cabs from and I tried my best to not look back
at him and to totally ignore him.

Then my instincts proved me right. He suddenly went like
"Good morning…" as I walked towards the road.

Damn…

Worst, he continued talking tho all I heard was just sound and
I was freaked out to even understand the words that were coming out of
his mouth.

Then suddenly out of nowhere a cab suddenly came towards
our direction. I looked at him, interrupted the sound that was coming
out of his mouth and asked him if he was waiting for a cab. He then
paused for a while and then he replied "Oh no, I am waiting for……"

I smiled at him, said "okay" almost as soon as I heard the word "No"
and I hailed the cab and got into it while I could still hear him talking away.

It was 6:30am. sigh

Please don’t scare me so early in the morning.

I honestly get freaked out when someone approaches me outside when
I am alone.

Even if you know me through someone and if you were to see me outside also
please don’t approach me unless you are certainly 100% sure that
you are going to make my day by talking to me, which I highly
doubt it. Unless you have a innocent puppy face which has got 110% HARMLESS
written all over it.

Angel, thank you so much for sending me that cab. The cab appeared out of nowhere so suddenly that it seemed so magical. And I promise in my next life if I ever get a chance to be a guardian angel of someone, I would take care of them the way you take care of me.

Home Delivery

2008-08-30T14:57:00.000+08:00

Different ways to order
food from Macs, KFC or Pizzahut.

1. Instead of giving your phone number, give them your full
address details. And when they ask your number again, give them
your I/C number or their hotline number.

2. Do not name the toppings you want for your pizza.
Spell them out. I want to have C-H-E-E-S-E, M-U-S-H-R-O-O-M-S,
C-H-I-C-K-E-N P-E-P-P-E-R....Err.. R-O-N-N-I-E..

3. Ask if the order taker is wearing a uniform. If she/he says no,
ask them why not and demand that you would like your order
to be taken in a professional manner.

4. Ask if you get to keep the pizza box. When they say yes,
heave a sigh of relief.

5. Call to complain about the other service. Like call Macs
and complain about KFC and Macs to complain about Pizzahut.
And when they ask if they could take your order, say you will
consider and call back again.

6. When they confirm on your oder. Change it. Then when they
confirm on your order again, change it once again. On the third
time, say "You just don't get it, do you?"

7. Imitate the order taker's voice.

8. Call KFC and order a Mac Spicy meal and you would like to
have your meal upgraded. When they say they dont serve those,
say this is totally not acceptable and that you would
like to speak to the Manager.

9. Call KFC to order Chicken and request for a kampong chicken.
If they say they dont serve Kampong Chickens, ask them what do
they feed their chickens.

10. Terminate the call with, "Remember, we never had this
conversation at all".

Dear God

2008-08-25T20:17:00.000+08:00

Dear God,

How have you been lately?
Hope everything has been great up there,
Cause things havent been really that fah-bo-loh-soh over here.

Well God, my work is honestly starting to drive me insane.
By the end of each day I feel like I'm almost half blind
and my mind is totally drained.

I honestly wonder how long more it is going to be this way
cause God, this is seriously becoming too much to contain
and it doesnt seem to be getting any better in anyway.

You see, there's OT almost everyday,
That means there's no time at all for me to go out and play
And since I dont go out much these days,
I feel like I am starting to decay.

So God today I go on my knees to pray,
That you would do your little magic to make the backlog fade away
So that I wont be tempted to look for another job &
I can happily choose to stay

And thats all I've got to say, for today.

P.S - I love ya.

Amen.

Yours Sincerely,
S.L.A.P
Suspicious Looking Anonymous Person.

Bourjois

2008-08-02T17:05:00.000+08:00

2 Words.

SINGPOST SUCKS!!

Like seriously.

They have got the worst service ever.

After all the trouble they put me through, I finally got my package.

Bonjour Bourjois!

The Love Box

2008-08-01T22:59:00.000+08:00

I was looking for the ziplock bag under my bed which contains all my
manual guides and startup disc for all my electronics
when I came across this box.

The box which contains all the birthday cards, valentines day cards,
love letters and self-made cards which I have received for the past 10 years.

I can't believe people actually took the effort and time
to write me stuffs and to mail them out to me. I even got a letter
from a dude from Thailand and I can't even remember
anything about this person.

Memories memories ..

Aloha!

2008-07-19T10:25:00.000+08:00

I know it has been the longest time since I stepped in here.
I just realised the last thing I wished here was for May to come soon.
But now, July is almost coming to an end.

The month May and June would probably mark as the best months for 2008.
I had so much fun during these two months thanks to someone really special
who was in town for holiday. After a long time I genuinely smiled, laughed
and had a good time without having to put on an act. But you know what they
say, all good things must come to an end.

Come Soon May

2008-04-01T20:14:00.000+08:00

I have been wanting to update this for the THE longest time.
But honestly, I have either been too busy or extremely tired
to sit down and get down to it.

Work has honestly been a bitch. Besides the recent non-stop OTs,
the work load has increased as well and they seem to expect alot
more from us. Why does April have 30 days without even one
freaking holiday? Now all I can look forward to is my leave
on 14th April. Yay.

Moving on to the semi-brighter side, my company is organising a
party for us on 16th May 2008.

Venue : The Singapore Flyer Site

Okay, I know this seems like a really cool venue and event but
it is starting to freak me out. I mean try looking at that thing
from Park View Square and you would know what I mean.

These things are meant to be looked at only. I dont wanna be
inside like a hamster.

Anyway, moving on to something that would put a big smile
on my face - Dnesh is coming to singapore in May!! Yes,
cute vain pranthu vaathu! The same dude I divorced online 2
years ago. Now, I get to see my nevermarriedbutdivorced hubby!

Yabba-Dabba-Doo!!

All the more now I wish April will end soon.

Relative

2008-03-16T20:21:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was another one of those days where I got reminded
once again how small Singapore truly honestly is.

Yesterday another online friend of mine turned out to be a
relative of mine. I met this dude during my random IRC time,
years back. I guess we exchanged MSN contacts and we used to have
those tiny chats which have never gone more than 5 minutes.
Yet, each time I did a contact clean-up on my MSN, I just never
really had the heart to delete his contact off
(block and delete - thats the way I do it).

So yesterday I saw him online and I decided to msg him. Eventually
we started to really talk. He turned out to be someone really fun
to chat with actually. He knew I was older than him but he forgot
how old I was. So I lied to him that I was 32. Then I told him how
I was yet to see a proper picture of him all these years and so he
started showing me his photos. Photos of himself during his younger
times and then pictures of himself in his sister's wedding.
Then suddenly came a picture of two ladies. And then it suddenly
hit me how one of them looked so damn familiar. Then I realised
it was my cousin Reena. And guess what she is his cousin too which
technically makes us related.

The funny part of the way we both are related doesnt just stop
there. Infact it gets even complicated. It took me a while and
then I finally found the equation.

Connection #1
He is = My mom's elder brother's wife's sister's son

Connection #2
He is = My grandfather's elder sister's son's son

This is what you call peanut butter from the left right center.

Moral of the story
Singapore is freakin' small.

I Aint Gonna Let You Have My Cab

2008-03-12T23:25:00.000+08:00

I decided to take a cab back home today since, it was a long day at work.
Plus it was raining like mad and the only thing I could think of was cozy cab ride,
where I can comfortably stone for a good 20 minutes.

Work finished at 5:30pm only thanks to OT. So the taxi stand @ ParkView square was already kinda crowded with people waiting impatiently for cabs. I prayed to my angel to send me a cab soon while I flipped the 8-days magazine hoping to find an interesting article to keep me occupied while my ride came. As usual, I was also having my small talks with the security guard who was trying to handle all the incoming cabs on call and vehicles which were not supposed to stop at the entrance.

Then suddenly, I heard a loud deep voice out of nowhere.

Unknown Man : Hello!
I turned around to see who and there stood this man in his early 40s carrying a big bag.

Unknown Man : I'm going to the airport, would you like a lift? or like me to drop you somewhere?

As much as I wanted to snap at him (simply being me)I refrained. Instead I smiled back and politely told him, It's totally out of the way, but thanks!

The dude smiled and nodded his head while I turned back to exchange "what the fuuggg" look with the security guard. I had no plans in giving up my cab for him as I was already waiting there for a long time. But what a really nice way of
trying to tell me that he is in a hurry and if he could take the cab first.

The guard and me exchanged more glances. It was almost like I could read his mind and he could read mine. He nodded at me like he was trying to tell me that
"He will not allow that dude to steal my cab".

After a while a black shiny merz with some country flag on it drove up to the entrance. The driver looked all smart and he got down to open the door for the dude. And guess what? That dude got into the car and they drove off. It happened so fast I stood there with a puzzled looked. At this point I was honestly taken aback. So he wasn't waiting for a cab afterall. But he wanted to give me a ride in his merz?

Like what for?

By then, people who around that area started throwing me weird looks like trying to figure out the connection between me and the so-called-big-shot-guy.

The guard looked at me once again deep in thoughts. But this time, I had no idea what was he thinking.

But what was I thinking?

What? I look like mistress material now?

Someone Like Me

2008-03-10T21:52:00.000+08:00

Don't let your head rule your heart
Don't let your world be torn apart
Don't keep it all to yourself
Just let all your emotions run free with someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me

I know it's hard when you're feeling down
To lift your feet up off the ground
We make mistakes
But doesn't everybody
You don't always have to agree with someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me

We know the story so far
I know what you want and who you are
Let all your emotions run free
You don't always have to agree with someone like me
But that's the way it should be

Someone like me.

- Atomic Kitten

Stuffy Nose

2008-03-07T11:38:00.000+08:00

Been quite sick lately. Down with Flu and fever.
Been to the doc like twice and ended up getting 4 days MC in total.
Medication after medication yet nothing seems to be getting better.

Havent been able to even sleep it off. I can barely even breathe thanks to my stuffed nose. Today when I went to see the doc again, he decided to give me
stronger medication which is supposed to help me sleep better.

I have taken all the colorful pills and now I am waiting in bed to doze off but guess what?

I want to keeeeeeeeel him!

:(

2008-02-29T23:47:00.003+08:00

100 More About Me
1. I swallowed a napkin pin when I was 11 months old.

2. When I was less than a year old, I got fits and my heart
beat stopped and I was technically dead for few minutes. And
while everyone else had given up hope on me, it was my grandma's
faith and the hard tap on my back which brought me back to life suddenly.

3. After the almost death experience, I suffered from Meningitis
and the doctor freaked my parents out saying I could greatly affected by it.

4. Due to the pin incident, I used to stammer a lot until I was 6.

5. I have an elder sister who looks nothing like me and no-one has ever guessed that we both are sisters. Tho, I still strongly believe that my mom picked her up from somewhere.

6. My parents have never hit me before.

7. I used to be very close to my dad till I was 12 and then I became damn close to my mom.

8. I would proudly say that I am good at searching things online.

9. I am addicted to mascaras and eye shadows.

10. I have never had a serious relationship (bf) with a Tamil speaking guy before.

11. I am in love with a Pink bear called Pukka.

12. I am no longer as sarcastic and mean as I used to be.

13. I tend to control my temper these days when I get pushed around and bullied.

14. I got problems remembering faces.

15. I remember people by the way they smell.

16. I call my dad "Dada".

17. My dad calls me "Vaalu" (as in naughty. Direct translation tail.

18. I stopped clubbing.

19. I call my sister Chacha. (Sharmila -> Sasha -> ChaCha!)

20. I tend to be online in the middle of the night due to my sleeping issues.

21. I strongly believe in Karma.

22. You wouldn't wanna provoke me.

23. I don't enjoy shopping like normal females. I am a online shopper.

24. I can live on breads.

25. I got a phobia eating Ferrero Rocher ever since I saw the photos of the chocolates with worms inside. And I got a huge bouquet of Ferrero Rocher for V'day.

26. 90% of my clothes are black. The other 10% purple, brown and dark green.

27. I still fear the Indian crowd.

28. I still love 7-UP.

29. I think guys who can cook are damn sexy.

30. I have never slept for more than 5 hours continuously.

31. I am terrified of cockroaches.

32. I hate my rooms white curtains.

33. My way of saying goodbye is "astalavista baby" & "Cheemoz".

34. I make weird noises when I am feeling hyper active.

35. I am known for singing a certain weird high-pitched tune among my close friends.

36. I have fainted in the train once and in the train station once and many times at home.

37. I can tell you about your love story with a deck of cards (for real).

38. I have a habit of writing letters my subconscious mind on what I want and 90% of whatever I have ever written as come true so far.

39. My fave line "Look on the bright side.." followed by a statement to make them realize the situation isn't quite as bad as they think it is.

40. I love Fossil watches.

41. I love Black & Purple.

42. I love Nasi-Lemak!

43. I prefer Cranberry to Orange Juice.

44. I am a neat freak in office and a neat person @ home. There is a difference.

45. I am aware that I am surround by fake-ass bitches. I only act naive.

46. Most of my dreams tend to come true or they tend to have a strong message.

47. I get very upset when I break an eyelash tho I know it sounds bimbotic.

48. I hate it when people use the word "Lah", "Lor" or any unwanted singlish word.

49. I think I may have a Chinese soul trapped in an Indian body.

50. I hate squids.

51. I am allergic to sea foods.

52. I tend to cuss badly when I am pissed.

53. I can multitask with a couple of things. However when I get interrupted
while multitasking, my mind will completely go blank.

54. I have never hit anyone with the intention of hurting them.

55. I have been the rudest bitch to random strangers who approach me in clubs.

56. I have completely stopped huffin' n puffin'.

57. I ever had an Indian school mate in Primary school who plotted to split me and my girlfriends and her name was Natamai. Yeah like "Natamai, thiruppai Mathi yeluthu!"

58. I can never miss any Aishwariya Rai movies.

59. I think Arjun Rampal is the hottest bollywood actor.

60. I like TIMEOUT chocolates.

61. I love to see the passion a guy has for soccer. I think its adorable.

62. I am known to have an acid tongue.

63. I cant never put up with guys who brags too much.

64. I can't stand dumb ass lazy bitchs.

65. I apologize when I am in the wrong and I expect the same from others.

66. I can't stand people who whine so much and complain so much just to get something done. Whiny people should have been born mute.

67. I know who my true friends are and I keep them where they belong in my life.

68. I am a simple girl in a complicated world.

69. I am a very shy person tho people usually mistaken me for arrogant.

70. I only kiss someone on the forehead when they mean the world to me.

71. I abhor guys who use love as a dirty trick to achieve continuation of the species.

72. Every Sunday is bed and pillow bonding day.

73. I used to be in my school's Basketball team for the first 2 years
when I was in Secondary School.

74. I tore my right knee ligament during dance practice when I was 14.

75. I escaped my BCG jab in Primary School.

76. I can't stand Punjabiz who think they rule just because they are the fairer skin.

77. I may fall in love easily but it takes me really long to fall out of love.

78. I don't keep quiet when people diss my family or friends.

79. I am my mom's Psychiatrist and Counselor.

80. My mom is my love Counselor.

81. My mom knows about every single person in my life. If she has never heard about you at all, that just means you are insignificant to me.

82. I can't stand negative people who don't appreciate life and who are not grateful for what they have.

83. The smallest things makes me smile and happy.

84. I still believe, money can't buy me happiness.

85. I am truly grateful for what I am today and for what I have.

86. I no longer believe in flings or part-time lovers.

87. No-one can figure me out as much as my Mom.

88. I scold my Dad when he does something he is not supposed to do.

89. When I love someone, I love them for who they are, including their flaws and bad habits.

90. White Daises still makes me happy.

91. I've got Insectophobia.

92. I rather kill myself than to listen to Jazz or Classical music.

93. I can't live without music.

94. I can't stand LOUD people.

95. I am not an attention seeker and I can't stand attention seekers.

96. I still have not got on a bike before.

97. I got a guardian angel that I call upon for help daily.

98. I believe in GOD and miracles.

99. I try my best to be a great daughter to my parents and I will try my best to always be there for them the way they have been for me.

100. I am happy with my life. Tho something huge is missing,
I believe everything will be perfect soon.

I Ain't Into Pussy

2008-02-27T19:58:00.000+08:00

I honestly don't know which part of me screams "lesbian",
but I have been having couple of lesbians trying to add me on MSN.
It's crazy believe me, but I honestly have no idea where on earth they get
my email contact from or which fucknut has been speading
my email contact around saying I am a lesbian.

One of them is this girl under the nick of naughtybabe69 who has
been requesting me to add her on MSN. Tho I have been rejecting the request,
when I logged on to my MSN at work, somehow or rather my MSN ended up adding her automatically.

(7:22 PM) naughty.babe.69@: hey
(7:22 PM) CHiTRa: Hi.. do I know you?
(7:22 PM) CHiTRa: you have been requesting me to add you..
(7:23 PM) naughty.babe.69@: yeah frm frenster naughty.babe.69@hotmail.com added u quite sum time bak
(7:23 PM) naughty.babe.69@: I've tried addin u few timess
(7:23 PM) naughty.babe.69@: I'm Angel,26
(7:23 PM) naughty.babe.69@: u r
(7:23 PM) CHiTRa: Chitra.. 26
(7:23 PM) naughty.babe.69@: nice
(7:23 PM) naughty.babe.69@: indian?
(7:23 PM) CHiTRa: yea
(7:23 PM) naughty.babe.69@: kool
(7:23 PM) naughty.babe.69@: I'm malay n indian mix
(7:23 PM) CHiTRa: Ok
(7:24 PM) naughty.babe.69@: att?
(7:24 PM) naughty.babe.69@: I'm Lesb by da way hope u dun mind
(7:24 PM) CHiTRa: No worries.
(7:24 PM) naughty.babe.69@: dats nice
(7:24 PM) naughty.babe.69@: so care to tel me lil more of u
(7:24 PM) CHiTRa: and no I'm not attached.. but I am straight
(7:25 PM) naughty.babe.69@: aww
(7:25 PM) CHiTRa: hehe
(7:25 PM) naughty.babe.69@: dats bad
(7:25 PM) CHiTRa: and why so?
(7:25 PM) naughty.babe.69@: wel u're lesb material
(7:25 PM) naughty.babe.69@: i wud luv dat
(7:25 PM) CHiTRa: Haha and what makes a lesb material??
(7:25 PM) naughty.babe.69@: hot lips
(7:25 PM) naughty.babe.69@: dark skin
(7:26 PM) naughty.babe.69@: seductive eyes
(7:26 PM) naughty.babe.69@: n a nice ass
(7:26 PM) naughty.babe.69@: hahah
(7:26 PM) CHiTRa: Thats judgin based on a pic?
(7:26 PM) CHiTRa: and obviously u haven't seen my ass
(7:26 PM) naughty.babe.69@: sort of
(7:26 PM) naughty.babe.69@: whu said so?
(7:26 PM) CHiTRa: so how do u look like?
(7:26 PM) naughty.babe.69@: i saw u last weekend @ chong pang wif a guy
(7:26 PM) CHiTRa: my.. now u sayin u have seen me around?
(7:26 PM) naughty.babe.69@: tink u were holdin a helmet
(7:26 PM) CHiTRa: haha.. not me
(7:27 PM) naughty.babe.69@: i dunno looked like u
(7:27 PM) CHiTRa: U got the wrong Lesbo material girl, babe
(7:27 PM) naughty.babe.69@: but dat babe had a tight ass
(7:27 PM) naughty.babe.69@: its k
(7:27 PM) naughty.babe.69@: so u haf a flat ass i suppose?
(7:27 PM) naughty.babe.69@: hahah
(7:27 PM) CHiTRa: me & helmet is like somethin which wud probably never happen
(7:27 PM) CHiTRa: Whatever that tickes yr fantasy eh
(7:27 PM) naughty.babe.69@: oops
(7:27 PM) naughty.babe.69@: sowli huney
(7:28 PM) CHiTRa: So how do u look like huh
(7:28 PM) naughty.babe.69@: fantasy?
(7:29 PM) Angel: c here babe
(7:30 PM) Angel: dats me

** Shows me a naked pic of her with her pussy facing the screen

(7:30 PM) CHiTRa: well.. u obviously mistook me for someone who gives a damn abt how yr pussy looks like
(7:30 PM) Angel: nah
(7:30 PM) Angel: its not my concern

(7:32 PM) Angel: i'm feelin so bored
(7:34 PM) CHiTRa: errr ok..
(7:34 PM) Angel: wat u doin?
(7:34 PM) CHiTRa: chattin with my friends and watchin TV

** I got bored so I decided to add Sayeeth in

(7:35 PM) CHiTRa: so, u into guys as well?
(7:35 PM) CHiTRa: or just females?
(7:36 PM) Angel: guys @ times
(7:36 PM) CHiTRa: ah..
(7:36 PM) Angel: but havent really met my type
(7:36 PM) CHiTRa: mind if I add a friend of mine? maybe we can spice the chat up
(7:36 PM) Angel: guy?
(7:36 PM) CHiTRa: yeah
(7:36 PM) Angel: ya sure
(7:37 PM) I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy. has been added to the conversation.
(7:37 PM) Angel: hey
(7:37 PM) CHiTRa: I'm sure u guys can intro yrself
(7:37 PM) Angel: I'm Angle,26
(7:37 PM) CHiTRa: So angel, u got a gf?
(7:37 PM) I am whole, perf: hi
(7:37 PM) Angel: lots of em
(7:37 PM) I am whole, perf: hi angel, i'm sayeeth
(7:38 PM) Angel: muslim?
(7:38 PM) I am whole, perf: no
(7:38 PM) I am whole, perf: human
(7:38 PM) CHiTRa: LOL
(7:38 PM) Angel: wel tot u had sum cut up cock there
(7:38 PM) CHiTRa: Angel is indian muslim
(7:38 PM) I am whole, perf: she is? how sweet
(7:39 PM) CHiTRa: yeah..
(7:39 PM) Angel: indian muslim?
(7:39 PM) Angel: me?
(7:39 PM) Angel: nah
(7:39 PM) I am whole, perf: then?
(7:39 PM) Angel: m indian malay mix
(7:39 PM) CHiTRa: malay n indian mix gives u what then??
(7:39 PM) CHiTRa: LOL
(7:39 PM) Angel: watever jus dun cal me indai nmuslim
(7:39 PM) CHiTRa: malayindian?
(7:39 PM) I am whole, perf: malayindian?
(7:39 PM) CHiTRa: SNAP baby
(7:39 PM) I am whole, perf: then what are you?
(7:39 PM) Angel: watever
(7:39 PM) CHiTRa: awww why you heatin up now Angel?
(7:40 PM) Angel: so wat da fuck u wana noe now
(7:40 PM) Angel: tis's y i hate cocks
(7:40 PM) CHiTRa: why?
(7:40 PM) I am whole, perf: cocks are cool
(7:40 PM) Angel: they tok alot of cock
(7:40 PM) CHiTRa: I asked the same freakin Q too..
(7:40 PM) I am whole, perf: they're friendly
(7:41 PM) Angel: ya
(7:41 PM) Angel: ur mum wud luv 2 suck em
(7:41 PM) Angel: not me
(7:41 PM) Angel: freindly?ya they loves ur mums ass
(7:41 PM) I am whole, perf: oooh fiesty
(7:41 PM) CHiTRa: hahaha
(7:41 PM) I am whole, perf: the last i heard such statements was almost 10 years ago
(7:41 PM) CHiTRa: old school..
(7:41 PM) I am whole, perf: guess old habits die hard
(7:41 PM) Angel: watever
(7:42 PM) Angel: hahah
(7:42 PM) Angel: blocked dat fucker
(7:42 PM) CHiTRa: and whatever made you think I wont block you too, you fuckin bitch?
(7:43 PM) Angel: ?
(7:43 PM) CHiTRa: U are a waste of my time.
(7:43 PM) Angel has been blocked
(7:43 PM) I am whole, perf: haha

If all lesbians are like her I honestly dunno what to say.
She is such a disgace to the lesbians Society.

Like as tho, this wasnt enuff, she just emailed me a whole load of
her lesbo pictures with some really bad censorship as well.

You know like Cover the face(with a black rectangular covering the face) fuck the base sort.

Help me.

Changes

2008-01-10T19:54:00.000+08:00

Meet..

My 2months old ex.

My new love

2008

2008-01-01T12:14:00.000+08:00

I am Legend

2007-12-24T23:15:00.000+08:00

I just came back from watching I am Legend and I really enjoyed the movie. Tho I've never really been into those man eating Zombie movies,
I thought this was really good. The sound effect was good and certain
scenes can freak you out in a werid way.

Will Smith is such a hot stuff.

I thought it was worth every of my penny. And if you are a Will Smith fan,
then you gotta go see this movie!

Awrite now I'm off to a quiet count down to Christmas in my room with Puka for once without all the noise pollution, alcohol, cigg smoke and drunkards
around me like every other eve of Christmas.

Oh btw.....

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Squeekie Clean

2007-12-23T23:46:00.000+08:00

Dear Chitra, Here is your horoscope for Sunday, December 23: Do you need to clean out the closet, garage or junk drawer? Now is the best time, as you are totally ruthless when it comes to discarding things. You may need to check in with your spouse or boss first, though!

Believe it or not that was exactly what I did today.
I decided to clean my room to prepare it for New Year.
I started at 11am and I actually ended only 11pm!
Tho in between I did stop to go to the shop to get certain stuffs for my room.
But still there went 12 hours of my Sunday!
Thank god I am off tomorrow or else it would have been hard getting up in the morning considering how tired I feel now.

I cant believe I had so much of stuffs in my room. I threw so much stuffs.
Everything is now re-arranged and super organised. I was indeed ruthless when it came to throwing stuffs I didn't use. While I cleaned up, I found
couple of my earrings which I never knew I had.

Clean room, happy satisfied me!

2007-12-20T20:52:00.000+08:00

We had our office gift exchange today. You know where you buy a gift for an unknown person and then they pick your name and you end up getting a gift in return from some random person from the office. The usual in every office. So I decided to bring the additional gifts that I had got for those who are pretty close to me in the office - Priya, Rachel, Angie, LiMing and my new neighbour Judy.

Well, I didnt really know Judy quite well to know exactly her likes and dislikes so I got her eggs. Not just any eggs but dinosaur eggs.

Liming got for me Spongbob Squarepants!!! It's a cushion.. no wait..its a toy? Hmmm okay I dont really quite know what you call that. But I SO LOVE IT. He is so squeezable!

Now life in office isn't going to be the same anymore with him around.

Come Quick 2008

2007-12-18T23:06:00.000+08:00

I can't believe its 18 December 2007.
One week exactly for Christmas. It's been almost 12 months yet I feel like
I can remember last year's Christmas so vividly.

It's scary how time flies. This year was seriously super fast.
In fact, it went so fast for me that I can barely even remember
certain months. It's almost like I hibernated through those months.
No memories at all or what so-ever.
Infact it is kinda scary how they went by without me even realising.

But then again maybe those were really painful months/days.
Days my conscious mind probably refuse to even remember.
Moments my subconscious mind thought it was better kept hidden deep within me.
Well, 2007 has probably been one of the worst year I've ever had to go through.

so far..

Being one of the worst years ever, I probably cried the most this year.
There were many days I've wished I could just disappear.
Many days when I put on a fake smile to the people around me, while they pushed me around.

.. it never pays to be nice, I swear

This year I have probably met the most superficial people. People who are just so damn fake. People who smile and talk oh-so-super-nice when they need something
or when they need a favour. And when their needs are met they start showing their true ugly side.

It feels like I've probably met every ugly soul with the worst foul mood swings and people who be acting like they know it all.

...in these 352 days

I realised this year, I totally stopped clubbing by April and I never once
consumed alcohol until I felt high or tipsy. I ended up hanging out with just one person all the time that now I realise I have neglected most of my good friends.

..tho deep down I know I have my reasons...

Oh well, just 13 more days to go.
Time to fuck the past and look forward for the future.
Soon it would be goodbye 2007 and welcome 2008.

I'm sorry but I'll probably not miss you one bit, 2007.

2007-12-03T15:53:00.002+08:00

Forgive Me

Forgive me for the times I had neglected you,
For the times; I had lost my trust in you

Forgive me for the moments when I refused to
seek your help when I was in trouble
For the times I've been a bitch to others

Forgive me for the times I've tried to bribe you
Or for the times I've made a joke out of you
Forgive me for the times I had stopped loving you
And for the times I thought you had stopped loving me too

Forgive me for the times I had lost my faith in you
The moments I thought my life was just a joke to you
Forgive me for all the times I've cursed and swear
For the times I simply refuse to care

Forgive me for the times I've wished people
around me will just drop dead
For the times I've had evil thoughts in my head
Forgive me for the times I've seek revenge on those who hurt me
For the times I've forgotten the rule
"what goes around will come back to you X3"

Please forgive me.

For Thou Lord art good, and ready to forgive and
abundant in loving kindness to all who call upon Thee.

Mascaras

2007-11-30T20:22:00.000+08:00

Mascaras Mascaras Mascaras.
What can I say? I can never have enough mascaras.

I am addicted to mascaras. Every woman has a weakness. Mine is mascaras.

Dispite having a box fulls of different sorts of mascaras, I still bought myself a new one.

The package is so cool in a silver casing. And it's cheap. I got it for just $18.90!

REVLON 3D Extreme Mascara

What it does
Dramatizes eyes with 17X fuller, 70% curvier and 50% visibly longer lashes plus beautiful separation so lashes appear multiplied from every angle.

How it works
The Exclusive Bold Impact Brush is tapered to lift, amplify and separate even the tiniest lashes. The patented lightweight gel formula with intense color pigments delivers bold lash look in one step no primer needed! No caking or flaking.

Get the look
Use the shorter bristles to deposit mascara then comb through lashes with extended bristles. Use tampered tip for hard-to-reach lashes.

I was so damn happy that I got myself a new mascara until I saw this!

MAYBELLINE XXL Curl Power Volume + Length Microfiber Mascara

This mascara dramatically curls and extends lashes 45° from root to tip.
Patented CurLock formula gives
lashes 12 hours of hold.
No clumps
Exclusive PowerCurve brush
Ophthalmologist tested and
safe for contact users
Washable

And the casing is in purple color! So annoying. :(

Hollywood Stars in 2037

2007-11-26T19:41:00.000+08:00

Man, I feel so good!

Cool Girl

2007-11-22T22:26:00.000+08:00

MediaCorp Sucks!

2007-11-21T18:48:00.000+08:00

I dont think I would ever wanna take part in any contest with MediaCorp ever again.
Their service totally sucks!

My dad decided to help me go get my free gift from MediaCorp today since he
was on leave. And so I thought, yay I do get to enjoy my free gift pack afterall.
But upon going there, he was told by the recep that my gift package wasn't ready yet.
The malay girl at the counter told my dad that 98.7FM was yet send them the gift packs.

WHAT THE FUCK?

If it wasn't ready, then why on earth did send a letter requesting me to pick it up from 19 Nov 07 then? First, it took them more than one month to send it.
Then they give unreasonable timings to collect it and then when we finally get there, they practically brush you off saying that it wasnt ready.

Best part, the recep even claimed that no one was picking up the phone from 98.7FM side when she called to check.

What impressive customer service they have.

After making my dad wait for more than 1 hr claiming they were checking, just when my dad walked out, they called my dad again requesting him to walk in again to collect the gift pack.

MediaCorp suck big time.

Updates

2007-11-20T16:11:00.000+08:00

I finally got the letter from MediaCorp to collect my Kanya West gift pack.
To say, I actually completely forgot about it. I won that in what, September?
And I get the letter to collect my prize in November.

Fah-boh-loh-soh.

Best part, collection period is from 19 Nov to 30 December 07,
10 - 5:30pm (excluding Saturdays)

What do they think? That people who listen to the radio do not have work?
They practically keep the collection time to be on a freaking working day between working hours. Worst, the collection centre is in some 'wuloo' area.
Participating in any contest for MediaCorp turned out to be such a total waste of time.

Moving on, I cant quite wait for my company's Christmas dinner party.
Yeah, finally ME looking forward to a company function.
Why you may wonder and that because of the following prizes that we MAY win.

1st Prize - $20000 worth unknown massage chair
2nd Prize - $1500 worth Chan Brothers travel vouchers
3rd Prize - 24 inch Samsung TV
4th Prize - $1000 debit card

Now, guess which prize I've got my eyes on.

THE FREAKING 4TH PRIZE!

Honestly, who cares about the Chair, travel vouchers or TV.
Give me the freakin damn cash man.

And I wonder, which lucky byatch is gonna win it.

Rocket Science

2007-10-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

Antares is the 15th brightest star in the sky. It is more than 1000 light years away.

Now how big are you?
And, how big are the things that will upset you today?
Or, for that matter, the things that are important?

Truth About Life

2007-10-04T22:36:00.000+08:00

Insomnia

2007-10-02T14:32:00.000+08:00

Now I lay me down not to sleep
I just get tangled in the sheets
I swim in sweat three inches deep
I just lay back and claim defeat

My hands are locked up tight in fists
My mind is racing filled with lists
of things to do and things I've done
Another sleepless night's begun.

There's so much joy in life,
so many pleasures all around
But the pleasure of insomnia
is one I've never found
With all life has to offer,
There's so much to be enjoyed
But the pleasures of insomnia are ones I can't avoid.

Lids down, I count sheep
I count heartbeats
The only thing that counts is
that I won't sleep
I countdown
I look around ...

The things I do in office

2007-10-01T16:26:00.000+08:00

One of the things I'm paid to do at work.

Which I donated to Shu Lynn as you can see her name below it.

Well..

2007-09-25T21:12:00.000+08:00